Sunday, August 04, 2013

Visit With Abby


My dear baby Abby.

She's down below on the bottom level.

The Specialist called me this morning and feels like there some
further things to pursue. So she didn't say there is no hope.
What she did tell me was that she was guardedly optimistic.
Very guarded.
Heavy on the guarded.
So she said that we had to think about making decisions.
oh boy.
But, they are doing everything that medically can be done on a
cat who has HyperT, HCM and now kidney problems.
They are willing and we are willing and Abby is willing to go this last mile.
I will do everything I can possibly do for her, give her every chance
that can be given to her.
I am not trying to over do it and have repeatedly reiterated my position
to the Doctors. I want what's best for her, not for me. FOR her.
As you can see in the one picture I got of her with the O2 tent
unzipped she looks good. She truly does.
But I also know and I said this to the ER vet, looks can be deceiving.
And she sadly shook her head yes.
Abby is in her words "fragile" and that I believe is a very apt description.
She is still breathing heavier than she should and her BUN was up.
But her lungs are clear.
There is this delicate balance and they are trying super hard to find the appropiate combination of medications that will
address all 3 of her problems. That isn't an easy thing when all of them
are so critical.
***
But when they let me touch Abby and she sniffed my hand and she knew it was
me she got very animated. She loves to rub her cheek up and down my hand to
"mark" me as hers, She nibbled my fingers and licked me. She purred like crazy.
I would zip back the tent and then I just couldn't go.
So I would unzip it and we would start all over again.
Me rubbing her head, her marking me and nipping my finger and
giving me kisses.
I did that several times before I left.
I told her over and over and over
I LOVE YOU Abby.
I love you
I love you
I love you
to the moon and back
again
and again and again.
***
So one more day...
I was afraid today was that day I was going to have to make
some very hard decisions but no.
Not today.
I only have today.
I only have right now.
She is safe and doing fine.
That's all that matters
right
now.
***
Thank you all again.
How can I tell you how much your words of comfort mean to me?
They are priceless.
I will be back to everyone when I am able.
I don't know what is going to happen
and well I think everyone understands.
Abby thanks you.
I thank you.

Sing with me...

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day

 

47 comments:

  1. We are sending our very best healing purrs to Abby, and all our paws are crossed that she gets to spend many more days with you.

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  2. Thank you for the photo update. Abby does look good.
    Is the BUN the only thing that is up? How about her Creatinine?
    We continue to say our purrayers for Abby and send her purrs.

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  3. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I am the same as you, I would do everything I possibly could for my fur babies, as long as it was in their best interest. I will continue to send purrs, prayers and healing energy.

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  4. oh thank you so very much for this update. We have such leaky eyes...precious precious Abby. You and Abby will know if she doesn't want to have more done for her. We hold you both in our paws and arms and sing and purr with you Savannah and Mom Linda

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  5. It's hard to type while crying. I'm so sorry Abby and you are going through this.

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  6. I am purring every minute (and the Human is doing whatever it is the Humans do) for sweet Abby and you too. Sending lots of love to you both! XOXOXOXO

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  7. One more day, sweetest Abby. One more day. One more day.

    Take care
    x

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  8. Many hugs to you and Abby. And purrs and purrayers and headbutts.

    Luf, Us and Maw

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  9. Thank you for updating us. We are purring hard for Abby and singing along with you. One more day. Much love from all of us to both of you.

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  10. One more day
    One more time
    One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
    But then again
    I know what it would do
    Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
    Leave me wishing still, for one more day
    Leave me wishing still, for one more day

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  11. Deep and loud comforting purrs from all of us. Your love for Abby is precious.

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  12. We've been thinking about you and Abby so much...Sending you love, strength and hope.
    Bless you.

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  13. One more day is all any of us has. Here's hoping, purring and purraying for many more "one more day(s)".

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  14. Thanks so much for the update on Abby. I know you will make the best decisions possible for her, and right now it sounds like she is in good spirits, even with everything that has happened this past week. I am sending nonstop purrs hers, and your way.

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  15. I know you want to crawl into that tent and curl up with her.
    How difficult it must be to leave her each time. I continue to hold you both in my prayers. Shaggy and Scout send gentle purrs. Lynne

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  16. c'est très émouvant, pensées, courage, courage, beaucoup de courage et espoir.

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  17. We are so much with you and hope and pray for the very best xox

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  18. I am so with you on this, tears flowing as I have just gone through all of this..and I hope and pray that you both hold onto each other's love for strength to endure and recuperate. The lungs are clear which is such a hopeful sign. Our thoughts are with you. Please know we are here for you every step of the way. xx

    Love and kisses to you and Abby~Mom Julie, Angel Tom, Tinker and Anastasia

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  19. Prayers for you and your dear kitty.

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  20. I think about you and Abby a lot. I know I am feeling this especially acutely because I am still in a lot of pain over Lucy. Your love for Abby and hers for you comes thru so clearly in all your posts. Regarding her kidneys, I'm surprised that they're focusing on her BUN and not creatinine. In all my research over the years caring for Simba, it's always creatinine that's the indicator of kidney damage and if its getting worse. That's what the vets always said as well as all the caregivers I got to know and learn from on a CRF forum.

    I'm so sorry for your pain and sadness. You're doing the very best for her. It sounds like her spirits are high when she's with you. I hope for the very best for her.

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  21. We are very sorry for you and Abby. We are purring very hard that she will improve.

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  22. One more day. One more day. One more day. What a precious love you and Abby share. The Ballicai and I are keeping you and Abby close in our hearts and sending you both our most loving purrrrrrrrrrrrrrs.

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  23. My poor Abby,
    I send purrs non-stop to you. I hope everything turns in the good way. I paws crossed and pray for you, my sweet heart. You are most loved
    Many hugs to the mom
    xoxo

    Puddy & Mom Boom

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  24. Oh that song just tears my heart out...as someone who travelled this same journey just a month ago my heart is with you.

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  25. Hugs to all of you. We're sending our purrs and prayers!

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  26. Mom's eyes are leaking because this post shows the love you and Abby have for each other. We're purring very loud and hard for her and for you.

    The Florida Furkids and Mom Sharon

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  27. Abby and Mum I am catching up on all of this and HECK ABBY YOU ARE WORRYING US GIRL!!

    C'MON GIRL! YOU CAN DO THIS! We KNOW you can we BELIEVE in you kitten. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!!!

    YOU have the Strength! YOU have the power and our hopes are with you every paw step of the way.

    COME ON GIRL!

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  28. Oh dear friend, my heart breaks for you and Abby. We know how very difficult this is. Take each day as it comes, and Abby will tell you when it's time, if that is what she wants. Know that we have you and your family in our thoughts and prayers. Abby - sweetie - we love you pretty girl! "One day at a time........."

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  29. You and Abby have been in our thoughts and purrs all day. We pray that you get one more day...and then another and another....

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  31. So good to see pics of Abby - we will be with you both in spirit. One more day.

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  32. Me and mom keep sending (((purrs))) and huggies

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  33. Harley and I are keeping Abby in our thoughts and purrs.

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  34. May you keep on having that one more day... *hugs*

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  35. We are right here with you and we would do, and have done, as you are doing now. We all send our best purrs and prayers along with all our love and hugs to you and to sweet Abby.

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  36. Just take of yourselves, the rest of us are here with you all in spirit. Abby is a lucky cat and you are lucky to have her. Purrs to you all.

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  37. We missed the update and send a BIG hug to you. Keep sending love energy to Abby. I'll email you.

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  38. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Give Abby a pat from Lou and I, please.

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  39. oh my, what a ride. one more day Abby, one more.

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  40. Yes, indeed. One more day, Abby. We will purr and pray this every single day.

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  41. My heart goes out to you - it's so overwhelming when our babies go through something like this. I know you'll make the right decisions for Abby every step along the way. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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  42. I can't say it any better than Ingrid did above. Plus, you and i have been communicating and you know how I feel. Sending all of my purrs and prayers and love.

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  43. More love, prayers, hugs and purrs from us and our mom. Kitties Blue

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