Tuesday, November 05, 2013

Pathways

One of the morning routines was for Abby to escort me up and down the hallway to clean the litter boxes which were located on each end of this long hallway through the house. It was an every day ritual. She would run interference. If any other cat got in the way, she would fuss at them and they would run away. I can't tell you why she would do this activity but in some way I see it as her way of protecting me as I did my daily rounds of cleaning.

That first day after she left, one of the hardest things to do was this walk alone.

I know that may seem such a trivial matter, but it was huge.

I have been working through all my Abby photo archives and redoing her pictures. It will take me a long time to sort through everything, but one of the things I was looking for was evidence of our "walk". I finally found Abby sitting pretty in the long hallway. It's funny how when you are looking for something you can't find it until much later when you're really not looking for it.

I'm not as raw as I was when I was first searching for these, and now it's much easier to accept the gift of finding evidence of the daily things we use to do together. It was for the best I didn't find these right away. You see my heart wasn't ready for them then. I'm not on life support anymore, slowly very slowly time weaves it's magic and the pain lessens and the tears do not fall as often when old memories creep up on me.

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All of those years Abby we made this walk together are etched deeply into my heart. I can still hear you meowing out your orders and see you marching confidently down this hallway. I cannot help but miss your help each day, but I am blessed with the many years you kept track of me. You were honoring your loyal pledge to protect me in the way you knew I needed. Abby please know I was so thankful, thankful for so many things. Most of all, thankful for you. I love you Abby girl, I love to the Moon and back again and again and again.
Love, 
Mom

30 comments:

  1. We are not sure you are ever going to do that walk quite alone...

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  2. You and Abby had such a special bond. I'm glad that you are beginning to truly heal so you can look back on the memories you shared with her and treasure them without so much sadness.

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  3. ((((((((((((big hugs))))))))))))) Such a sweet Abby girl. When it comes to memories of a dear loved one who has passed, I have always loved the song "I'll Be Seeing You" by Frank Sinatra.

    "I'll find you in the morning sun;
    And when the night is new;
    I'll be looking at the moon;
    But I'll be seeing you."

    Love and purrs from me and the Ballicai.

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  4. ♥ Mew are never alone ♥ even when mew think mew are ♥

    Bestest purrs

    =^.^=

    Basil

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  5. I don't think it is trivial at all… it is the little things that our pets do / that we do together that impact us the most…

    Sending love

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  6. The little memories are often the things we remember most. I had a
    black mancat called Max some years ago and when he returned from his daily walkabouts he always used to throw himself at me. Then he'd go out exploring again!
    Luv Hannah and Lucy's Mum xx xx

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  7. it is interesting the things that will pop up and stop us dead in our tracks when we least expect it.....

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  8. Peace in your heart is moving in and you will one day remember Abby with more smiles and less tears

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  9. She's right there with you, no matter what you are doing!


    The Florida Furkids

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  10. They do leave such happy memories. Sometimes it takes a while to smile at them.

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  11. She's still walking you but you can only see her in your heart.

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  12. Abby and you created so many memories together, memories that will forever be with you.
    Those are lovely pictures of Abby on the long hallway.

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  13. purrsss n nosekissies to mine gorgeous sweet tuxie angel Abby

    your adoring floofy cocoapuff meezerman Sammy

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  14. Your heart will eventually smile at the loving memories and Abby will be most pleased.

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  15. YES INDEED IT WAS HUGE TO HAVE TO WALK THAT FIRST DAY ALONE. ABBY WAS YOUR SOUL MATE AND PRINCESS OF THE HOUSE.
    HUGS MADI AND MOM YOUR BFFF

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  16. I feel sure that Abby continues to do that walk with you.

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  17. We're sure Abby still makes that walk with you. ♥

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  18. We agree with the Island cats, that
    Abby is still making that walk with you. Glad to hear that some of the sting is going away. It is so so hard when they leave. It is fun seeing what you two did together.

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  19. You are still being snoopervised by Abby. Making sure you do things right.

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  20. Such a lovely memory and lovely pictures.
    Time does lessen the hurt, but you never forget :)
    Purrs Tillie and Georgia,
    Treasure,Tiger, JJ and Julie

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  21. I hope the time is beginning to come for you when the memories of your girl bring you joy amidst the sadness. XOXOXO

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  22. It is a huge thing..the routine is a memory and it pulls at you...funny how we realise the simple routines are just as meaningful as the most amazing events...hugs Fozziemum xx

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  23. It's those little things that mean so very much. Hugs.

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  24. I believe you are correct that your "heart wasn't ready for them" therefore they couldn't be found. That is a wonderful way of putting it.

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  25. There are so many treasured moments that we don't even realize until they are gone. Dab can't put his shoes on without Josie "helping" him.
    --Jasper

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  26. A beautiful gemstone of a memory that you will carry with you forever - so that no matter the day or time, you truly will never walk it alone. We are so deeply grateful that you are easing off "life support". Our hearts are with you....

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  27. Such a touching post. Purrs to you.

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  28. That is such a wonderful memory that you have. These are the important thing in life. The things that make us better human beings with an understanding of the deep value of all life and our interactions with others.

    Recently Dad had some work done for our bloggie. The lovely person who did this commented that maybe we should be called "The most photographed cats in the world"

    He thought this was great. And also remembered how Dad wishes he had photos of some of our Angels.

    Times change. The things in our hearts are forever.
    Purrs
    Timmy and Dad

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  29. I felt that way the first morning I woke without my Lady Bianca, aka Admiral. I went through all the rooms opening the mini blinds and raising them up. My baby was not accompanying me so my tears did instead.

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