Tuesday, June 03, 2014

For Annabelle and Abby

It's hard to believe that Annabelle has been living with me six months. Time moves like a roaring river and can slow to a crawl of a babbling stream. But move it does. Annabelle's journey to me is so intertwined with Abby's journey that I cannot separate the two. My shattered heart needed to be able to share the deep love I have for Abby with another, another manx. Abby knew I needed that, and I will always believe she was the one who prompted me to go looking on that particular day at the cats in PetSmart. I had not ever done before, why that day? My belief is there are no coincident and it was meant for me to find "Fritzie". I still laugh when I think that she was called Fritzie. I have no idea why she was named with such an odd name for a beautiful cat. I don't know why she was owner surrendered. She is such a sweetheart. But whatever the back story was it isn't important now because her future is assured. She has been a soothing balm to my sad frozen heart. Watching youth blossom in front of me and getting to know and love her has been a magic elixir to a soul that is badly wounded and needing to pieced back into place. I now know that it will never be quite the same as the loss of my beloved Abby was life transforming for me. You can't undo the damages caused by grief you can only patch them and go forward. Patched and mended as well as they can be you rally and go on, never leaving behind the scars that you bear. For me, the right answer was bringing another into my patched up broken down heart and finding that there is more love to give and receive, and there is another life I have helped to save. I adore this tiny little girl. She brings smiles and joy and love. Lots of love. I am grateful to her and to the girl who came before who will always be the love of life. 

there are all
 kinds of love
in this world
but never
the same
love twice.
~f scott fitzgerald



  1. We understand what your saying- and you say it beautifully.
    May your heart continue to heal.

  2. I'm all teary--it's so true that love just continues to evolve, and grow. Bless Abby for sending you Annabelle.

  3. how beautifully you write. i admire the way you are able to translate your feelings into words. thank you for sharing these with us.

    emma and buster

  4. I just want to mention that every time my human goes to the pet store, she looks at the adoptable kitties, and she has never, not even once, seen a manx, much less one with Annabelle's beauty. It had to be some sort of otherworldly plan.

  5. The world works in mysterious ways.
    We are glad you found Annabelle.Abby had a paw in that :)
    We understand your feelings.
    It has been 6 months since Tillie passed and Mom still misses her so much.Some kitties just touch you more.
    Purrs Georgia and Julie,
    Treasure and JJ

  6. It was purrfect synchronicity, mew were meant to find each other!

    A beautiful story of how the pieces of the puzzle fit together just when they're supposed to ♥ pawesome ♥

    Happy tails

    Bestest purrs

    Basil xox

  7. We are sure Abby sent you to find Annabelle at PetSmart - there can be no other explanation.
    Luv Hannah and Lucy xx xx

  8. Beautifully said. Abby was certainly instrumental in bringing "Fritzie" home. That name makes Mommy smile too.


  10. We know Abby had a paw in getting you to go take a look at your future heart smiles.

  11. We are glad you found Annabelle when you did, we too are sure it was meant to be. It's a shame the price for years of love is grief. Maybe it makes the love that more bittersweet?

  12. sometimes when you aren't looking is when you find exactly what you need....

  13. it is often frustrating to hear of cats being rehomed like that, but think, if she hadn't gone into that first home, she wouldn't have ended up in yours.. they are where they need to be sometimes to get to where they are going.

  14. brandi found me when I had no intention of getting another cat. And I fell in love with Quinn right when I was so missing brandi.
    They know. They always know! Love is meant to be shared!!

  15. We never step in the same river twice. Life would be dull if all loves were the same, but we know that's not how it is when living with animals!

  16. Yes, it was meant to be. Abby ensured you and Annabelle were both in the right place at the right time.

  17. That was absolutely beautiful!
    I am so glad you found each other when you both needed it so much!
    It is a beautiful thing!
    ღ husky hugz ღ frum our pack at Love is being owned by a husky!

  18. Annabelle was a God send sent by Abby I am sure. I feel the same about my Cody. I adopted Cody 2 weeks after my 18 yr old Bobo passed....Cody, like Annabelle was "the soothing balm to my sad frozen heart"

  19. We were so happy when Annabelle came into your life as it seemed as if you had sunk to such depths of despair that you would never be able to crawl out of it. Mom has found that the only way to patch those holes in her heart that the past kitties have left is to find another baby who needs her help and love. We are glad that this is working for you as well. XO, Lily Olivia, Mauricio, Misty May, Giulietta, Fiona, Astrid, Lisbeth and Calista Jo

  20. Oh, Debra...
    So beautifully told...
    You wear your heart on your virtual sleeve and touch us so deeply.


  21. Exactly my journey with my 2 torties, Tara and Truffles. Our stories are so similar. Your words are always so beautiful.

  22. We are so very glad Annabelle has brought smiles and joy and laughter to help patch your hurting heart. *purrs*

  23. Hugs! I feel similar with my sweet Quill.

  24. This is a beautiful post. And that poem at the end is perfect. We didn't know Abby, but we can tell she was irreplaceable. However, we are glad that you have found Annabelle. It sounds like you both have helped each other a lot.

  25. They are each such beautiful girls and you have such a beautiful love with the both of them.

  26. Dat be vewy beautiful. Meez mommy unnewstands 100%. Meez vewy glad yous saved anuddew life and leawned tu luv again.

    Luv and Hugs and Kitty kisses


  27. So beautifully said Debra. Mum's all teared up!! xox

  28. I believe you and Annabelle were lead to each other. I believe everything happens for a reason. As for Fritzie, my Mother used to have two dachshunds, a boy and a girl. The boy was named Fritzie. And I keep trying to fit that image to Annabelle...nope, it just does not work! :-)
    Hugs to all of you!

  29. Amen to that. You put into words what I have felt since I lost my Oskar 5yrs ago the 23rd this month.
    Thank You
    Marty's Mom


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