#TBT

A Thousand moments I took for granted.

Mostly,

because I assumed there would be

a thousand more.

*

*

*

#TBT

#missingyou

 

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C.2013

*

And life

goes on,

but,

never the same.

*

#TBT

#missingyou

 

TBT

C.2013

*

*

*

The heart that truly

loves,

never forgets.

*

#TBT

#missingyou

 

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C.2006

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*

*

I can still see you there Abby.

***

Grief is:

love's shadow

the presence of absence

the unbearable weight

of emptiness.

~John Mark Greene

#TBT

#missingyou

 

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July 2010

She was an paw dangler.

***

#TBT

#missingyou

 

TBT

Her existence was temporary.

Her impact was permanent.

#TBT

#missingyou 

 

TBT

I cry for the life you lived 

and

the one you didn't.

#TBT

#missingyou

 

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In 2011 we had a Christmas in July moment.

#TBT

#missingyou

 

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July 2012

Oh to see her again on her blue blanket.

#TBT

#missingyou

 

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C.2011

Memories have to be our most

painful blessings.

#missingyou

#tbt

***

Writing this beforehand as I am 

unsure what the weather conditions

will be like in regards to #elsa.

Oh how I detest Hurricane season.

 

TBT

The weight of loss never goes away,

we just learn how to carry it.

***

#TBT
#missingyou

 

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#missingyou

 

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When I think of death,

and of late the idea has come

with alarming frequency,

I seem at peace with the idea

that a day will dawn

when I will no longer be

among those living in this 

valley of strange humors.

**

I can accept the idea of my own

demise, but I am unable to

accept the death of anyone else.

I find it impossible to let go a

friend or relative into the

country of no return.

Disbelief becomes my close companion

and anger follows in it's wake.

**

I answer the heroic question 'Death where is

thy sting?'' with "It is here in my

heart and mind and memories.'

~Maya Angelou

***
#TBT
#missingyou

 

TBT

May 2013

***

AND 

once the storm is over

you won't remember how you made it through,

how you managed to survive.

You won't be sure in fact,

whether the storm is over.

But one thing IS certain.

When you come out of the storm

you won't be the same person

who walked in.

~Haruki Murakami

***

#TBT

#missingyou

 

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May 29 2006

***

This was a favorite spot she'd chose to

get some sun at.

***

People say...

you don't know what you've got 

until it's gone.

Truth is...

you knew

what you had

you just never

thought

you'd lose it.

***

TBT

#missingyou

 

TBT

Mar 2012

***

If we measure lives not in time but in Grace

in the joy with which they are lived,

and in the love they leave behind,

then we have much to learn from our cats,

#TBT

#missingyou

 

TBT

April 2013

***

We don't see things as they are,

we see them as we are.

~Anis Nin

***

#tbt

#missingyou

Our final April.

 

TBT

I talk about Grief a lot.

I know it's not a popular subject, but for 

myself since Abby died, Grief took

me in a direction I would have

never dreamed.

Her death in so many ways prepared me

for things that were to come in 

my life.

Not unlike so many countless

others I've had my share of life's losses.

One right after the other.

There is nothing that will truly equip

you for the maelstrom that Grief encompasses.

But, her loss foreshadowed so many others,

and it sadly taught me about sorrow.

The feelings I had about Abby and her loss

I had to understand more.

Even in the sadness that was there,

my challenge was to understand it.

I've learned much to help myself deal with it all.

But, I know when the Grief Monster comes

for me again I will be like everyone else.

You succumb to overwhelming deprivation.

There is no where to hide from loss.

Even if your mind knows that eventually the 

overwhelming part will subside,

I've learned it never goes away.

So, by 'trying' to console someone with

the you'll get over it crap is a terribly

debilitating burden to place on someone.

From what I've seen and heard, every single 

person has had someone say something to them

that made them feel guilty for missing the thing they lost.

I will say just don't do it.

Just don't tell someone they'll get over it or to get on with

their lives. If they could, they would.

They can't.

It's not something you get over.

You never do.

You learn how to live with it.  

***

I still miss my Abby.

I still cry for her.

Now I know I always will.

***

And I vowed nearly 8 years ago,

as long as I lived 

I would remember her.

I've kept my word Abby.

 

TBT

Which way do I go?

That is your choice said the Path.

But what if I go the wrong way?

The Path curved a little,

almost as if it was giving me a hug,

and said: DO NOT WORRY.

Sometimes we go the wrong way

on our way

to the right way.

Grief reminds us all 

that the most important thing

is to keep going.

We are after all just 

walking each other home.

#TBT

#missingyou

 

TBT

May love be what you remember most.

#TBT

#missingyou