#TBT

C.2010

She did not want to look at the camera!

#TBT

Abby

March 2013

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Spooky cat

Abby

The paw dangle

(March 2013)

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Thankful #TBT

C.2012

Abby always loved a nap in a box,

any box!

She was a boxaholic!

My sweet girl.

#TBT

#Thankful

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#Thankful

our scars remind us 

that the past

is real.

Thankful #TBT

I love this photo I took of Abby

in July of 2006.

She was running across the bed and her paw prints

make tracks as she moves toward the window.

#TBT

Thankful #TBT

Do the memories exist because we have proof, 

or do we remember without it?

***

I can't lay claim to remembering every single day

we shared and that is why the proof of photographs

are so special.

When I see this, I remember.

I remember none of the cats liked the cat cups

very much. When I would first put them out they

would investigate them and then leave them be.

But I can tell you this sums up Abby's personality so well.

She was always high on alert at the slightest thing.

I don't know what it was that truly caught

her attention, probably Boo.

But I can recall thinking how adorable she looked,

and how small she was in this standard size cat cup.

Miss you Abby.

#TBT

Thankful #TBT

C. 2012

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C. Sept 2012

I can remember this so clearly.

It's so hard to believe it's been nearly 5 years.

#TBT

#Thankful

Thankful #TBT

C.2013

My beautiful girl, Abby.

#TBT

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C. July 2013

***

It's been 41 months or 1249 days today.

This photo is from some of the last photos

I took of her before...before life as I knew it

would be irreparably changed forever.

I see now that Grief is something that one never

gets over, you simply learn to live with it, but

it never leaves you. It changes you,

and you have to learn to adjust to it's ebbs

and flows and title waves.

For me, I have to mark time. I have to keep track of it

It's my nature to be pragmatic and count the steps.

I used to think each day was one day more

where she was removed from my daily life.

But I've since come to see it as I'm one day

closer to joining her where she is.

Not in a maudlin sense but in a progression of my

Journey. She's up ahead of me on the pathway,

just around the corner which I cannot see around,

but she's there, and waiting. She is waiting for me.

It will be such a joyful reunion.

One day.

But until then I simply miss her.

My heart has a emptiness inside of it.

It still beats and it still loves.

The aching and the sadness have lessen by time

But the absence of the heart

that will never stop.

Not until my heart stops beating

and I find the end of my pathway

to the one thing that means everything to me.

***
I love you Abby

to the Moon and back...

I love you.

Thankful #TBT

#TBT

c.2009

***

So thankful for all the memories and 

all of the photos that help me remember

the everyday moments.

#TBT -- Thankful

From December of 2012

our last Christmas together.

😇😇😇

4 years it's been a long time.

***
We are joining Brian from
BRIAN'S HOME
to help him celebrate his 8th Gotcha
and his
THANKFUL THURSDAY
BLOG HOP.

Thankful #TBT

It only seems like yesterday,

when I would find you

lying on the server in the sun.

It's hard to believe it was 11 years ago...

#TBT

C.2005

Thankful Thursday -- Giving Thanks this Thanksgiving

From 2009
#TBT


there's so much to be grateful for
join me
in
celebration
of all things
great and small
wishing you
happiness
love
and
a full
tummy
******
Happy Thanksgiving.

Thankful #TBT

c.2012

My beautiful girl.

#TBT & A Thankful

Feb 2013

***
We're joining Brian's Home
for his inaugural
THANKFUL THURSDAY
blog hop.
We hope to see you there!!

Abby & Her Pumpkin

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I remember this string.

I would play with Abby by dangling the string

and she would dance and skip with it

on the linoleum  floor.

I still have that string.

I still have nearly everything that Abby touched.

I can't part with it.

Not even now.

***
I miss my girl.

Hurricane Matthew is meandering it's way towards the Florida coastline.
It's going to hug the coast tightly.
They are thinking it come ashore mid-Florida.
But, no one really knows.
There is mandatory evacuations along the Beaches communities.
Millions of people are on the move.
I hope I've made the right decision to shelter in place.
I am about 40 miles from the Coast.
We will be without power.
No question.
We will have Hurricane force winds so power will go out.
The state is well prepared for that, but 
they cannot start repairing the lines until the storm passes.
Hoping for the best but preparing for the worst.
Anyone in Matthew's path has my prayers for the least 
amount of damage.