Angel Mancat Monday

C.2015

Large and in charge!

 

Angel Mancat Monday

C. 2015

Looking like the he-man Mancat that he was.

 

Angel Mancat Monday

Dec 2019

It was a nice day to be out on the catio,

even if it was December.

***

Remembering all those who have fallen,

and didn't come home to family & friends.

We are free

because of you.

#MemorialDay

 

Angel Mancat Monday

I think I took about 50 photos to end up 

with these two of him sort of looking at

the camera.

c.2021

 

TBT

C. 2011

They're all gone now.

Abby, Gracie & Mr Jinx.

Checking out their new condo

that their Dad built them.

He's gone too.

Hope they are all together now.

#TBT

#missingyou

 

Angel Mancat Monday

C.2014

Ol'Green Eyes

👀

 

Angel Mancat Monday

Check out those massive whiskers

and those green eyes.

His whiskers were half black and half white.

I always knew when I found his whiskers

on the floor who it belonged to.

I have a stashed of them from over the years.

 

Angel Mancat Monday

Oh my goodness this is an oldie.

Probably back in 2006 or 2007.

Jinx was up on the back of my computer chair.

 

Angel Mancat Monday

Angel Mr Jinx memory

Over 10 years ago...

What a sweet big little man.

 

Angel Mancat Monday

November 2019

Angel Jinx shares a lovely memory

from 2 years ago.

He had just eaten which was his favorite

thing to do. Aside from naps that is.

 

Mancat Monday with Angel Jinx

Mr Jinx

***

It's been a little over a week but we can't help 

but still have emotions about Jinx not being here.

Even when you know in that part of your soul 

that the time had come, you still can't find

a way to accept it.

On a purely objective level, anyone outside

myself would have advised to let him go before

I did. There is much debate on both sides

amongst everyone, but this decision has

to be right for the one making it.

I don't judge anyone on when or how they

come to their choice. It's purely up to them.

Only knowing if your animal was in acute

agony would make that a totally different choice.

Jinx wasn't.

He was battling time, and he was losing.

None of us escapes it.

***

But, even though it's over and done,

it takes a long while for the heart and soul

to catch up with the mind.

***

With Grief, I find I fall into the category

who must write out my feelings.

I think somehow it helps me understand

and my hope is it may help someone else too.

Grief is such a complex & nearly taboo subject.

But it is something that touches us all.

At some point, everyone loses 

someone who is the 'world' to them.

That is when you cross over into the land

of loss and you begin a journey down a road

that never ends.

I'm not saying you don't recover, I'm saying

it stays with you forever and changes you,

and you will come out differently

after you emerge from the fog of Grief.

***

And so it goes...picking up the pieces, looking

at the past, and wondering so much about 

the present. I just wish that things could stop being so hard.

 

Mancat Monday

C.2013

So we do our first Mancat Monday without Mr Jinx here,

but he is still apart of our family, nevertheless.

***

It's been awfully quiet.

You know when you lose someone, you don't always know

what will come. There are things that take you by surprise,

and one of the main things I was so accustomed to with Jinx

was his chattering away, it was a constant background noise.

I must admit, it bothered me from time to time, and I

would tell him to shush! Now of course I so wish he were here

to talk to me. I've told myself countless times

to never do this, but it's happened to me repeatedly.

You wish for something to 'stop' and then

when it does you wish it would 'start'.

I guess that is just one of the many things

that is paradoxical about life and loss.

***

I've looked for him in so many places.

He really was a big part of the glue that held the past

to the present. I know I've told the story about how

Jinx, Ping & Boo came here, but it was

Jinx that kept the 3 of them together. 

I learned that throughout

the years. He was their leader, and in turn he became

"the" leader. Quietly leading with his presence.

***

Things have changed, patterns and habits will be

altered, a new normal will one day seem

"normal". But it will take awhile.

I'm worn down by all care giving and loss.

Whether you are a caregiver to a person or an animal

it takes its toll. It's such a seismic shift, because you go

from all this 'stuff' you have to do to 

nothing.

Your head and heart can't quite catch up

 to the sudden

shift from 100 mph to 0.

ZERO.

It's partly explains why it's so hard 

because all that you've been 

used to doing ceases to exist.

***

To try and end this messy train of thought, 

I have to say  

Mr Jinx had a good life.

 It started off bumpy, and yes

being abandoned was not ideal,

 but at least he found a real home.

He was well loved for nearly 18 years.

No one wants someone they love to leave,

but he had a long happy life.

For that I am grateful.

***

He was simply put a good boy.

Mancat Monday

Look up!

Mr Jinx says we're now into November!

Wow where did the time go?

 

Mancat Monday

Hello!

Well when Mom makes a mistake with the dates,

Jinx gets to make a double appearance this week!

 

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My old guy.

 

Mancat Monday

Playing with what's under the covers!

 

Mr Jinx

He is on high alert to something!

 

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Mr Jinx enjoying the sunpuddles.

 

Mancat Monday

It's a sleepy first Monday in November

 

Mancat Monday

I'm awake and on high alert!