Visit With Abby

My dear baby Abby.

She's down below on the bottom level.

The Specialist called me this morning and feels like there some
further things to pursue. So she didn't say there is no hope.
What she did tell me was that she was guardedly optimistic.
Very guarded.
Heavy on the guarded.
So she said that we had to think about making decisions.
oh boy.
But, they are doing everything that medically can be done on a
cat who has HyperT, HCM and now kidney problems.
They are willing and we are willing and Abby is willing to go this last mile.
I will do everything I can possibly do for her, give her every chance
that can be given to her.
I am not trying to over do it and have repeatedly reiterated my position
to the Doctors. I want what's best for her, not for me. FOR her.
As you can see in the one picture I got of her with the O2 tent
unzipped she looks good. She truly does.
But I also know and I said this to the ER vet, looks can be deceiving.
And she sadly shook her head yes.
Abby is in her words "fragile" and that I believe is a very apt description.
She is still breathing heavier than she should and her BUN was up.
But her lungs are clear.
There is this delicate balance and they are trying super hard to find the appropiate combination of medications that will
address all 3 of her problems. That isn't an easy thing when all of them
are so critical.
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But when they let me touch Abby and she sniffed my hand and she knew it was
me she got very animated. She loves to rub her cheek up and down my hand to
"mark" me as hers, She nibbled my fingers and licked me. She purred like crazy.
I would zip back the tent and then I just couldn't go.
So I would unzip it and we would start all over again.
Me rubbing her head, her marking me and nipping my finger and
giving me kisses.
I did that several times before I left.
I told her over and over and over
I LOVE YOU Abby.
I love you
I love you
I love you
to the moon and back
again
and again and again.
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So one more day...
I was afraid today was that day I was going to have to make
some very hard decisions but no.
Not today.
I only have today.
I only have right now.
She is safe and doing fine.
That's all that matters
right
now.
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Thank you all again.
How can I tell you how much your words of comfort mean to me?
They are priceless.
I will be back to everyone when I am able.
I don't know what is going to happen
and well I think everyone understands.
Abby thanks you.
I thank you.

Sing with me...

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day