Happy Birthday

You would be 20 today.

I'd like to believe your celebrating

your heavenly birthday with all

of your cat family and friends.

#missingyou

***

Sometimes realizations come slowly.
Like recognizing that everyone is dealing with
some type of heartache.
As simple as that seems to recognize,
I'm not sure that it's something that is totally transparent.
Each of the heartaches is different and unique.
Not one is more or less hurtful than the other.
There is nothing to compare when it comes
to loss. It just hurts like hell.
It will never stop hurting.
The length of time will lessen it's daily
impact but when the full weight of the loss
is upon you it feels like it is the same
as the day it happened.
I know I will spend the rest of my life
searching for "MY" answer.
There are tiny tidbits that come into view.
Those "ah-ha" moments that give you
clarity, but they are hard to come by.
I suppose that why it's all such a mystery.
But, I will still go on my Journey which
started too many years ago, trying to find
whatever will make it all make sense to me.
I will also continue to put it out 'there'
that I am still seeking truth.

***

I show my scars so that others
may know they can heal.