Thursday, October 07, 2021

Never NeverLand


(my wedding invitation)



32 years ago today I got married.
It's odd how emotions can entangle your mind.
Today also marks the 6 months
since I had that last phone call from my former husband.
It's still incomprehensible to me
that I will never again see his cell phone
number appear on my phone.
Never another call.
It's that "never" part that gets me.

***

It's all so confusing.
This thing called Grief.
There are so many competing emotions.
One pitted against the other.
And now,
there are no further answers to be had.
It's that 'never' thing again.

***

Why is it now I talk to you so much?
I'm sure you'd be as surprised by 
that as I am.
Where did all the questions come from
that I thought I knew the answers
to, but don't.
Now, I'll never know.

***
Never.



 

11 comments:

  1. Sending you lots of hugs and purrs today (( ))
    Purrs, Julie

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  2. D; your invitation is beautiful ~~~~~~~ we have no answers, each of us I think goes through this; but can send hugs and loves ~~~~~ L ♥♥♥

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  3. Beautiful invitation. I am sorry he is no longer with you. XO

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  4. The never is the worst bit. My mum died almost 40 years ago and there are so many things I wish I had asked about my dad (he died when I was 5) but now I will never know.
    Hugs sent for you.

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  5. I hope today you're able to remember the happy memories you shared together.

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  6. You will know, some day, on the day when we all meet again.

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  7. Actually, Deb, I understand fully.

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  8. It is sad to think of that what was or may have been. Purrs

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