Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Abby;s Journey Day 16 Our Last Trip To The Moon


I have written my heart out because I knew that if I didn't none of
it would be remembered.
Yesterday and the 36 hours that preceeded it was Abby's
last and lasting gifts to me.
Abby went over the Rainbow Bridge
August 12,2013 at 9:55PM EDT

I'm not ready yet to do a tribute, I am just numb.

My girl was just so beautiful.
She is still beautiful and her beauty lives on
in my heart and thorough the eyes of all
the photographs I took of her.

I was trying to find one special picture and I can't.
But I came across this.
The date was important.
***
Also important was this was my first series of pictures.
So unknowingly my first picture is 8-12-2005
and my last pictures are from 8-12-2013
It was my first digital camera.
Abby had been with me 2 months.
My little ragamuffin.

I know that she's was not sad about aging or dying. Animals have a survival instinct, but a sense of mortality and vanity, they do not. That's why they are so much more present than people.

But she is at the time where she stopped being a cat, and started instead to be part of everything. She's in the wind, and in the soil, and the snow, and in me, wherever I go.

I just couldn't leave her,the past week.
I was afraid she'd die and I wasn't going to have the honor of singing her to sleep, or
of escorting her out.

Sometimes it takes me 20 minutes just to decide what socks to wear to bed.

But this decision is instant.

These are the choices we make, which define us. I will not be the woman who puts other things ahead of love & friendship.

I am the woman who stays home, concocting food for my dearest, oldest friend. And help her to be comfortable & comforted & safe & important.

Many of us these days, we dread the death of a loved one. It is the ugly truth of Life that keeps us feeling terrified & alone. I wish we could also appreciate the time that lies right beside the end of time.  I felt the most overwhelming knowledge of her, and of her life and of my love for her, in the last moments.

I did my damnedest, to be there for her.

Because it was  the most beautiful, the most intense, the most enriching experience of life I've ever known.

***
So we flew one last time to the Moon,
Abby and I.
But this time,
she flew higher than I could go.
She flew ahead of me.
While my feet stayed afixed
firmly to the ground.
I didn't want to let go.
But, I told her I would.
In those final intensely beautiful moments
I released my baby.
She went from my arms
to the arms of an angel.
And I know she is now healthy
and her youth is restored.
She will no longer need
to face more Vet visits,
and needles and pills.
She is free.
It is I who is shackled.
And numb.
And beyond words explaining: lost.
***
I may not be around for a little while.
I really don't know.
I am not quite sure what I am feeling.
Or where I am going.
***
I also want to do some retrospectives of Abby.
And get her back home with me.
Writing has been my saving grace. Words
spilling out and you listening and hearing my
cries of fear and agony and sadness.
***
I hope to find some wisdom somewhere
in all of this. I know Abby and I shared
some very deep and intense moments these
past 2 days. We said it all to one another.
She gave me her last gifts and I gave her
mine. But...it would not be human of me
if I wasn't wishing for that one more day
which I'll never have now.
But the week she spent her at home
was her final miraculous gift.
And God graced us with allowing her
a natural passage here at home
in the arms of the human who loved her
the most in this whole world.
***
Abby
I still 
love you
to the
Moon

and back
again
and 
again
and 
again
and

always will.
***
Love to all.
Thank you so much for your kindnesses.
Thank you for your compassion.

151 comments:

  1. Abby tu es magnifique, et tu es un trésor.
    C'est un très beau message, rempli d'amour.

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  2. I'm crying so hard I can barely type. No refuge even in the office washroom, as someone came in and gave me an odd look.

    Oh, what can I write? Not. One. D*mned. Thing.

    Everything you have posted has been filled with your everlasting Love for Abby, and I know that will live on, always.

    But oh, how I understand the inconsolable grief.

    Sending you Light and Love and enfolding you in my "arms," praying for peace.

    Godspeed, Abby.

    No one ever could have cared for you as your human "mom" did. Bless you both.

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  3. oh Abby mine sweet tuxie angel, I am devastated that you are gone. I am sending all of mine love to your mom - {{HUGS}} and kitty headbumps to you MomDebra.

    Abby mine darling, I will never ever forget you, you will always be mine sweet tuxie princess. I cannot say good bye, just know that we will meet at the Bridge one day

    Purrrss n nosekissies to all - your adoring very sad meezerman Sammy

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  4. Oh no. We are so sad to hear about Abby. We are glad that you had that time together. Abby was the luckiest cat ever to have had a person like you and to have had such a bond. Our thoughts and purrs.

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  5. We are so very, very sorry. Abby was a lucky girl to have your care and love. Much love to you from all of us. We're purring for you in what we know is a diffiicult time.

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  6. OMC Mom has such leaky eyes. We're so sorry that Abby has gone to the Bridge. The bond you two had was special and you were both so fortunate to be together at the end. Run free sweet Abby.

    The Florida Furkids and Mom Sharon

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  7. What a blessing Abby was able to go while at home with you. Thank you for sharing your beautiful Tuxie girl with us, and know how profoundly the love you have expressed for her here in these writings has affected us all. Abby, we know we will see you one day at the Rainbow Bridge and we will run and play together. We also know you will watch over your Mom and Dad and visit them in quiet moments in the breezes.

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  8. Oh, sweet lil Abby. Sweet Abby's mum.
    My fambly and I be crushed at your loss and touched beyond description at da beauty of your words. Such a blessing dat youse graced each odder's lives.
    We wish you peace. @DearClyde & M & D

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  9. We are so sorry yet so grateful that Abby was with you as she ran to the bridge. We wish we could say more but Mommy is crying and barely able to see what she's typing.
    We are keeping you in our purrayers and sending you lots of love and hugs. xoxo

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  10. I'm so, so very sorry... The love you and your Abby have shared has touch so many hearts...especially mine. I am grieving with you for this sweet little furry girl. Thank you for sharing your journeys, your thoughts and your love so eloquently.

    The world will miss Abby.
    Bless you for giving her such love and compassion.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    love,
    Glogirly

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  11. oh how my heart breaks. I was so hoping that Abby would gain strength and not even need that wonderful oxygen tent you got her..

    You were so blessed to have such quality time together in the end.. I hope you are able to hold on to that and let it bring you comfort... and may her love and your bond outshine the grief you are feeling.

    Hugs and healing purrs..

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  12. This is what you had posted on Fuzzy Tales when Annie died. Now, sadly, I give those words back to you:

    Treat me kindly, my beloved friend for no heart in all this world is more grateful for kindness than the loving heart of me.

    Speak to me often, for your voice is the world's sweetest music, as you must know by the soft touch of my fur against your leg, when your footsteps fall upon my waiting ear.

    Please take me inside when it is cold and wet for I am a domesticated animal, no longer accustomed to bitter elements.

    I ask no greater glory than to have the privilege of sitting at your feet beside the hearth.

    Keep my pan filled with water for I cannot tell you when I suffer thirst.

    Feed me clean food that I may stay well, to romp and play, to lay by your side, and stand ready, willing and able to protect you with my life, should your life be in danger.

    And my friend, when I am old and no longer enjoy good health and sight, do not make heroic efforts to keep me going, I am not having fun.

    Please see that my trusting life is taken gently.

    I shall leave this earth knowing with the last breath I draw that my fate was always safest in your hands.

    Author Unknown

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  13. I have sent an email and right now I gave so many tears I can hardly see. My email tells you howuch I love all of you and how I grieve with you.
    xxxooo always. I walk along with you.

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  14. We are so sorry to hear about Abby :( Big purrs, positive thoughts and lots of love to you during this time.

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  15. We are so, so sorry. Your post for her is beautiful. Huge hugs and purrs and purrayers from us. Fly free, sweet Abby girl.

    Love,
    Tazo, EG, & The Mom

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  16. I am so sorry. Your love for each other shines through every word you have written. We have all shared your emotions as you took us with you on Abby's journey, and we all share your heartbreak and tears.
    Rest in Peace beautiful Abby.
    Hugs Jackie

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  17. I am glad that she was home with you and that you had the time together to say everything that was in your hearts.

    We will keep up the rumbly purrs and the purrayers, but they are all for you now. We are so sorry for the loss of your sweet Abby.

    We hope Boo and Ping et al. make a giant comforting pile and purr on you today XOXOXOXOXO

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  18. Oh, we are so very, very sorry. We know how special your bond was with Abby. We have read so many of your postings over the years, and Abby was your sweet, Tuxie girl. The words you have written tell us that.

    Many, many hugs and headbutts and purrs and purrayers at this very difficult time.

    Luf, Us and Maw

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  19. We are all crying our eyes out for the loss of your beautiful Abby. Fly free sweet girl. (((hugs))) to your mom.

    Laila, Minchie and Mom Peggy

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  20. Oh, Debra, I am so sorry it was Abby's time to leave. She will always live in your heart and she left you with so many happy memories - she will always be loved and never be forgotten. Sending a big warm hug!

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  21. Our purrs and thoughts are with your family. We will miss Abby's posts but will remember her when reading ones her siblings post.

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  22. Your journaling of Abby's last days is a powerful healing testament to the love a human and a cat can share. Your spirits are entertwined forever and you will be one together again, just not right now. To have her pass naturally, without pain, in your arms was a miracle she made possible just for you.

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  23. ::tears::

    Dear Debra I am very sad to read this news about sweet Abby, we were all so hoping for her recovery!!! You always leave such lovely and comforting messages for everyone when things like this happen, I wish I could say something to you in return to help you now but alas, there are no words to take away your pain and loss. What I can say is that I know you did absolutely everything in your power to help Abby and that she had a safe and happy life filled with your love. I think she lingered as long as she could to try to help you come to terms with what was happening. She did not want to leave you and although her spirit was strong her little body was not. She is free from illness now and restored to health at the bridge where she waits for the day you will be reunited.

    love and hugs,
    cat xx

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  24. My heart is just broken for you. My own pain is still so raw...I won't say that I know what you're feeling because we all grieve differently but I will say that the love we all share of these precious angels takes us all down the same road eventually. We all understand and will be there for you whenever you need us.

    Love to you all.

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  25. I read it through oceans of tears
    I'm glad you were with Abby when she needed you most

    Sending you warmest hugs filled with love, I know what you are going through.

    Also sending up a bunch of kisses to the most beautiful Angel Abby.

    Hugs lillian shorty's mom

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  26. I can't even see through the tears to read anymore or type this little message of love to you. Know that we are all thinking of you and sending our best purrs of comfort to your people Dearest Abby darling. Xoxo
    Ms Stella O'Houligan

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  27. I read it through oceans of tears
    I'm glad you were with Abby when she needed you most

    Sending you warmest hugs filled with love, I know what you are going through.

    Also sending up a bunch of kisses to the most beautiful Angel Abby.

    Hugs lillian shorty's mom

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  28. I've asked Whitey to greet her at the gate. She's in good paws and great company. great big hugs honey. xoxo

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  29. I know your pain and I am truly sorry - but you are right - she hasn't left you and if you look close, you will see her in the chair.
    You will feel her rub against your leg and you will feel her jump into bed with you as you lay down and turn out the lights

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  30. I'm hardly able to see my computer screen through the tears. Our hearts are utterly broken to hear that it was time for your dear, sweet Abby to fly to the Bridge.

    The words you have written, the photos you have taken, and the life you shared together are an everlasting testament to the special love the two of you had. Thank you for loving Abby so much, and so well.

    Your sweet tuxie is healthy and whole again, and waiting for the day when the two of you meet again. Until then, we are sending soft and gentle purrs and prayers, and much love to you.

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  31. Sending love and condolences from all of us at Purrchance to Dream.

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  32. I've only met you recently but my heart is breaking for you. It was obvious how very much you loved your sweet girl. I am so sad she's gone to the bridge, and send you many healing purrs.

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  33. I'm so sorry. So sorry to hear the time came when Abby needed to find her way to the bridge.

    It's always so painful when we lose a loved one. The more we have loved, the more painful it is.

    Remember the love, always. I know you will and so will Abby. She will be lookin' down upon you from Heaven and remembering every wonderful moment she spent with you. Rememberin' the love you showed her. Rememberin' the happiness. She'll remember those moments fondly and with love. I know this to be true. I just know it.

    Until we meet again...

    Purrs,
    Nissy

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  34. Prayers for your family. Abby, we promise to take care of Mom for you until you meet again.

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  35. Sending tons of purrs and prayers. She is now with so many other beloved kitties w ho have passed, ones that we will see again. ((HUGS))

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  36. Mom says it sucks to cry at work....

    We are SO very sorry. But - she was SO loved...by you and everyone here in the CB too. We know she knew that and we are glad you had this time with her. It never gets easier, but we know she is watching over you. Purrs....

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  37. I have been having my own issues with our ancient Yoko and missed your last few posts but was not prepared for this one. I am so glad she was home and with you when she passed. I try so hard to have that happen with mine but is is not always possible or easy to go thru. You are so right that each moment before the last is a gift, a moment to treasure. Our dear Chica had one last good day when she came out and went to find her box that I had put away - I got it of course and let her have at it one last time. Having those last moments will sustain you in the days and weeks to come. You already know that she is now with you forever and will be waiting for you at the Bridge. Thank you for sharing all these precious moments with Abby. Goodspeed dear Abby - we will see you again. With deepest sympathy.

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  38. I'm sitting here in my office with the tears flowing; not knowing what to say. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you Debra as you grieve over the loss of your special baby. Truffle and Brulee are sending their comforting purrs.

    Mom Paula

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  39. Godspeed Abby, see you at the Bridge. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. Our heart breaks for you.

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  40. More beautiful words have never been written. Our hearts are with you and our thoughts fly with Abby. Hugs and purrs always...

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  41. Well, I was fine until I got to the part where you two flew to the moon one last time - and she flew beyond where you could go with her, straight into the arms of an angel (darnit, I'm crying again now, just writing this!).

    Oh we grieve with you - and we are beyond sorry that you and Abby could not stay together longer in this world.

    I guarantee that you will forever be thankful that you spent such quality time with her these past few weeks. I did the same with Ryker - I think he knew his time was short and asked for extra love in those last days. And those are the memories that I cherish.

    ABby is your special heart-kitty and will always be there with you.

    Much love to you - we stand with you as you mourn.

    Someone sent me this when I lost Ryker - I give it to you now - a question from us to G-d:

    "My heart is so small
    it’s almost invisible.
    How can You place
    such big sorrows in it?

    “Look,” He answered,
    “your eyes are even smaller,
    yet they behold the world.”


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  42. We are so sad! Abby was an icon to us. Her beauty beyond words. She is now resting and playing with Patches, Mistrie and Mittens, friends to the end!

    Toni and the girls

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  43. Oh Debra, I am numb and shocked to the core! I can imagine how painful this is for you! The loss of a companion is harder so much deeper than anyone can imagine unless you've been through it! I have!And it is different for each of us... I've cried tears of agony for both of you!! Emotions are raw and deep... give yourself time to at least feel and then heal. Please know, we are so very very sorry for the loss of your dear Abby, but know she is not suffering or hurting anymore...and this is the solace that will help you to start your healing process. Be ever so thankful for the good times and the love you both shared so deeply! Peace to you my friend and love always!
    Many Many Hugs & Purrs,
    Loretta & Kitty

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  44. I am sitting here at my desk now instead of the parking lot where I was trying to type thru my tears. And they are flowing. Your love for Abby and I know hers for you is so poignent and it is almost palpable. That is why we are so affected by her leaving and your pain. We have all felt it yes, but we grieve alone and you have priveleged us to allow us to grieve with you. And we do.

    Hugs, love, and our hearts are with you.

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  45. Debra, I am so sad to read about Abby's passing over. How blessed you were to be there with her, as I was with Scooby last year. She felt your love every single day of her life, in every breath she took, you were there for her and finally in that last embrace to comfort her and release her little spirit to something greater than we can imagine. You wil be reunited in the fullness of time and there she wil be....in your arms once again and forever. Hugs from Lynne, purrs and gentle ankle rubs from Shaggy & Scout.

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  46. Words fail at such a sad time. I have always loved your Abby from afar. How wonderful that her journey was on her own terms and with the person (and thing) she loved most in life. Fly free and Godspeed Abby. I know that Parker Pie and our other family members were right there to welcome you to the Bridge.
    (((hugs)))
    All of us in O HI O

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  47. TW has tearing streaming so she could hardly read me your post. We knew Abby from Twitter and only starting reading her blog after we heard she was sick and that she was the Abby we knew. Comforting purrz for those she left behind. She'll be with you forever in everything that you do or say. Keeping vigil on #Abbysporch forever. xoxox

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  48. Oh Abby we don't know what to say. We're sad that you no longer will share the cyberworld with us on a regular basis, but happy that your suffering had ended and that you are with ceiling cat and all the other angel kitties that went before you.

    Please help give your mom comfort as she grieves for the loss of companionship. She will continue to love you wherever you are, as we will.

    We are thankful that we knew you for the little time that we did.

    Fly free dear sweet Abby. You have made a difference in this world while you were here.

    We love you truly.

    Emma and Buster

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  49. Dear sweet Abby, Mom, Dad and siblings....we are truly heart broken and at a loss for words of comfort other than to say Mom you were 100% there for Abby each and every moment of her life. God bless you all as you work through this sorrow.
    Many hugs, purrs and lots of love

    Madi and Mom

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  50. We are visiting and so sad to hear you have lost your beloved Abby. One must take time to grieve...

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  51. Words fail me, I feel so badly for you and if I could I'd shoulder the pain...Abby will ALWAYS be with you as long as you live, memory never fades.
    xx Trish

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  52. We are so very very sad to read about Abby. You have written so very beautifully about her and she has enriched so many lives, both in life and now in her last journey to the moon. We send you very many purrs and hugs.

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  53. We just wanted to drop by and give you are love and sweetest condolences. We are so very sorry that your beautiful tuxie girl had to leave for the bridge ~ but we are overjoyed that she was loved so much by you whilst on earth, and will still be loved by you in Heaven. Thank you for loving her so much. xx

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  54. What a beautiful tribute to a very special girl. My eyes are still leaking from reading it. Abby will be much missed. My heart aches for your pain. Sending love and healing purrs.

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  55. My heartfelt condolences...from my and my furry family, past and present. May we all meet again 'over the rainbow bridge'!

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  56. We are so very sorry to hear that Abby made her final journey. We wish there were words we could say that could make your sadness go away...but there aren't any. Just know that we share your tears.

    RIP, sweet Abby! No cat is/was loved more than you. We'll miss you.

    Wally, Ernie, Zoey and mom Sue

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  57. Oh dear friend, I'm crying so hard right now because my heart is broken for you and your hubby. Abby is at peace now and knows no pain. She was a very fortunate little girl to have been cared for all these years by such a wonderful, loving staff. You have given her the most wonderful gift of all - loving her to the very end and then letting her fly free and high. I just wish I could give you and your hubby a big HUG in person. Please know you both are surrounded by love today by so many of us who understand your pain. Abby, sweetie, we'll all meet again some day when our time comes to cross that bridge! Until then Mario wants you to have one more big Mario SMOOCH!

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  58. My heart goes out to you. I read every day ... sorta dreading the news... so although I almost never comment I just wanted send some hugs and prayers. You did so much for your dear kitty.

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  59. So sorry for your loss. Our hearts break for you. Abby was one of our first Secret Paws and will always hold a special place in our hearts. Rest in peace, old friend.
    --Jasper, Josie, Huggy Bear and Maggie

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  60. I am so, so sorry to hear this very sad news and I am thinking of you and I know your heart will be breaking. Abby has been present ever since we started to blog and we have visited every day. She was always so beautiful with shiny fur and we will always remember her with a smile.
    Abby you had a loving home and family and we know you will always watch over them from Rainbow Bridge.
    Luv Hannah, Lucy and Mum Sue xx xx

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  61. I am incredibly sad for you. Your Abby was so very sweet. I am so sorry for your loss. And I am glad you spent her last hours here saying loving things to each other. What an incredible gift for you both. You will remember it with a smile of love, not of sadness, in years to come.
    Carol

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  62. God love you, you have put into words the intensity of feeling that I had with Tom, but I fell so short in saying. Through my own tears I cry for you and the bond and love you had. Sometimes a little creature blesses us with a soul ready to share, to become one with us and the parting is such an indescribable feeling. You put such beauty into your words. Abby was so fortunate to have had you in her life. Please know we love her, too, and share in your deep sorrow.

    Mom Julie, Mittens, Tinker, Anastasia and our own angel Tom xx

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  63. We are sad to hear the news of Abby. It sounds like you had an incredible bond with her - she will forever be in your heart. Purrs and hugs.
    Susie, Kimo & Sabi

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  64. I have read this entry through a river of tears. Please accept my most sincere sympathies, and know that it is coupled with gratitude that you took such loving and thoughtful care of your dearest friend. This loss is so very hard to learn to carry. It is my hope that your heart--the part that remains here, will still be able to access all the love and joy that Abby placed there, bit by bit and day by day. She will never, ever be away from you.
    She was a beautiful little girl and so lucky to have had you as her human.
    I will look for your tribute posts. Whenever the words flow, however they do...it will be perfect.

    Pease to you. Peace to Abby.
    Laura and the Squeedunk Cats

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  65. What a beautiful, lovely post for your precious girl...I am so very sorry for this tremendous loss in your life; I am crying at work as I read this, because I understand your journey with darling Abby so well...There is a tab on my blog about Nikki, my first baby; I held eye contact with her as she passed on to the Bridge=it was such a gift, a beautiful, intimate moment that I felt so grateful to have shared with her, one of the most precious moments of my life...Abby knew how much you loved her and she loved you in that way too; there are some bonds in life that are never broken=True Love is an energy that never dies and in that way, your gorgeous Abby will be with you always, in your heart and in every kitty you ever love...My sincere condolences; I wish you comfort and peace during this sad, difficult time...big hugs...J

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  66. When there were some years I could not have cats and I discovered cat blogs, this was one of the first ones I followed regularly and loved. Even though I know my relationship is not nearly as close to Abby as yours, your blog and kitties have always warmed my heart and given me that lovely, loving view of cats sometimes I really needed. In a small way, Abby felt like my cat, too, during those times. Thank you so much for sharing her life with all of us. She is one of the luckiest cats I know to have shared her life with you.

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  67. Dear Mom Debra, We are so furry sorry dat Abby had to go to da Bridge and leave you behind....., we were purraying so hard fur her recovery. Da mom iz got leaky eyez so bad, cause she knowz your heart iz breaking, az her did not so long ago......

    Your poem fur Abby iz so Beautiful...,such a Beautiful tribute fur your Beautiful girl. It broke owr mommeh'z heart :'(

    We send Soft Purrz & Kitty Kissez, and purrayerz to ease your breaking heart. ♥♥♥♥♥♥

    We purray for de Bright Guiding Light to Shine on Abby az she makez her way to de Bridge, where there will be many there to Greet her........we sure Penelope iz watching fur her ^..^

    Safe Journey Beautiful Abby ~

    know your mommeh luve(s) you sooooo much...., and mises you more ♥
    We all will miss you beautiful Abby ♥
    *bowing headz*
    Sunny, Gabriel, Lorelei, Larry, Ana & Aurora Rose and Mom Angel

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  68. Dat a bootiful post. Abby is all well now with tha angels and her spirit watching over you. Mommy's eyes are leaking bad for you. We cats knows better. Speshully us angels. We knows you will blog when you feels like it. Dat okay to wait long as you wants, efun if it's a hudnret years. We sends you lots of love and huggy paws for yore sads.
    Luvs,
    Angel Sanjee, Mini, Boni Maroni, Pepi, Gree, Mom Robyn, and our duk George

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  69. Our thoughts and prayers are with you! Me-Ommmmm

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  70. We are so sorry for your loss. We know how very special Abby was and she was adored every minute of every day she had with your family.

    Sending you our most comforting purrs.

    Cory and family

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  71. We just heard from Fuzzy Tales. We are so sorry for your loss. - Toby and Leia

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  72. We stopped to paw our sympathy and offer soft, warm husky woooos,

    RA

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  73. I am so sorry for your loss. You are an awesome cat mama and your Abby was so lucky to have you.

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  74. Aw, Abby...I am so sorry that you had to go now, but I am so very glad your Mom was with you and you got to have that special moment with her. I'll see you on the flipside...have a blast there. You deserve to.

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  75. I'm so sorry for your loss. I have tears in my eyes reading this because I know what it's like to lose a dear friend. Please accept our condolences. Purrs, Alana & Crepes from Catinthefridge.com

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  76. We are so sorry for your loss. Sending hugs and purrs. -Lily, Jan and their Mommy

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  77. My heart goes out to you and my tears flow for your dearest Abby. They're never, ever with us long enough. I, too, have been told our dear ones are fine with aging and with dying. They leave us with a hole in our hearts along with the most beautiful memories. Please accept my condolences. Stephanie and cats Ateret, Livia and Abbi.

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  78. You are already paying tribute to the beautiful spirit who chose to spend her life with you, and who in return you cared for every moment of her life. Purrs to you - you gave each other gifts that are beyond words, although I think you shared some of that with us so very eloquently in the past couple of weeks.

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  79. stoppin by with R sincerest oh symaptheez two ewe.....abby’s mom....dad....N familee XOXO

    we ask that God heal yur heartz; which we noe iz broken... N ewe findz comfort frum the
    manee manee friends abby haz heer, and haz all reddy meeted... at rainbow bridge

    we due knot wanna wax cliché....but pleez noe abby suffers noe mor, her is happee N healthy in God’s houz now

    that her trooly dinna say....good bye.....meerly, until we
    meet again at heavens gate

    ...N if her could...speek....her wood say, thanx mom & dad....
    for everee thing.... eye all ways have....N all ways will....love ewe two

    xoxoxoxo

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  80. You have been so eloquent in your detailing this final journey with sweet Abby. There are no words I can say that have not already been said. My heart is with you so very much. huge hugs, Caro xox

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  81. Our hearts are broken & our love & prayers are with you. Godspeed precious Abby, rest in peace.

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  82. Oh Abby... I can't believe you're gone, I was hoping so much that you'd be ok. I know she's at the bridge now, playing with our Inigo and all the other ones that have gone before.

    We will keep you in our thoughts.

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  83. We are so, so sorry to hear that Abby has gone off to the Bridge. We are thankful that she had such a wonderful life with you. China Cat & Willow surely were there to greet her.

    Purrrrrrrs, Spike William, Angel China Cat & Angel Willow
    Hugs, Mom Teri

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  84. We love that you shared these mose intimate days with us and hope the sharing made the weight a bit lighter.
    We know Abby was loved dearly and she knew that in her little heart.
    Until that day we all meet again where we are all young and full of life. Where we play all day in the sun and nap as much as we want and wake to our favorite meals as often as we want.
    Purrs and Prayers from all of us at the TomCat Home
    Timmy Dad and Family

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  85. It's a sad day, when we have to let them fly free. I understand your pain - I still have mine from having to let TT go. You did what you could and you let her be who she was and filled her life with love and happiness. Soar High Abby.

    Purrs and headbutts
    ((hugs))) Mom Laure

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  86. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Abby.
    Sue B

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  87. I just read your post on your Baby.And it made me cry!!! I'm sorry.I really don't know what to say but "I'm so very sorry" but please know that I am here for you if you need ANYTHING!!!!! My kitties are sending you 12,000000000000000000 purrs.And I am sending you 100,0000000000000000000 ((((((((HUGS))))))!!!!!

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  88. We are so sorry for your loss. We can not purr or say enough to tell you how much. We can only send purrs and hugs to help ease a little of your heartbreak.

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  89. So very sorry for your loss. I know you are hurting so very much and send love, hugs, purrs and understanding.. GJ and Carol x

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  90. My dear friends, I am so, so sorry I am late getting her and we are sorry beyond words that Abby had to go. I just wish I had the right words, but I don't. That you so much for sharing this beautiful soul with us. Abby will live forever in our hearts. We love you Abby and we always will.

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  91. I am crying as hard for Abby as I have for any of my beloved kitties who have left earths confines. And I am crying for you as I know how bereft you are. I am so glad that you were together at the end. It just seems so unacceptable not to be. I had prayed and prayed that she could weather all her health issues for a time longer. Please forgive my insensitivity for writing and asking for your address. I did it without knowing yet that Abby had gone to the bridge. I had hoped the two of you could enjoy the book about Bob together. I am holding you and Abby close in my heart. Please accept my sympathy and condolences. Janet

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  92. Lots of hugs to you MomDebra!! Abby was very special and we loved her lots!! We shall miss you Abby and never forget you!!
    Tears from your TX furiends,
    Samantha, Clementine & Maverick

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  93. I am so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Abby!

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  94. My heart is breaking for you over the loss of your beloved Abby. I have only recently been following your blog when I learned about it from GloGirly. I am so, so, sorry. I am writing this through my tears. The beautiful way that you write makes me feel like I knew Abby a little bit and I feel the loss. I do believe that Abby will always be with you, the love you shared cannot tear you apart and does not end. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
    Edie

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  95. Sharing your heartache, sharing the joy of your memories. She will always be a part of you. Blessings.
    Ann

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  96. Knowing Abby is gone is like a kick in the stomach. I so wanted to believe she would get well. She was one of our first blogging friends, and one of the most loyal. Losing her is like losing family. I will never forget her.

    I hope you are comforted in knowing she had the best home and most loving family anyone could have. She was so lucky to go from a home where she was unwanted to one where she was cherished. I hope I can do half of what you did for Abby when its my cats' time to go.

    I truly hope in time you will be comforted by all the beautiful pictures you took and all the fond memories you have. We are sending you purrs and our deepest condolences.

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  97. So very sorry for your loss. We are sorry Abby had to go. We know how much that hurts. Sending healing purrs and lots of love your way. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.
    Angel Normie, Mika, Sasha & Grady Lewis

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  98. I, too, am crying so hard I can barely type. I relate so much to the journey you have shared with precious Abby. I have been taking care of our dear sixteen year old Grand Old Brainball, and as you described so beautifully about Abby, I am all too aware that, at his age, he and I are getting closer to the end of our journey as we have known it and are closer to the cusp of something new. And yes, "one day more" with our loved ones. Forever isn't long enough to be with those we love. And such wise words about being present in every moment in caring for our beloveds.

    I have been feeling so strongly your heartfelt yearnings of "one day more," and I have hoped for one day more for you with your darling Abby and I also know that love never dies and you are so right about Abby being part, now, of the grass and the rain and the sunshine and the stars and the fresh breezes that blow. I am sending worlds of love and hugs to you and know that I am keeping you close in my heart. The Ballicai are all sending love and purrrrrrs.

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  99. So very for your loss of Abby. My Kitties are purring and us humans are praying for you from WI. God bless....

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  100. What a beautiful tribute to sweet adorable Abby! We will miss you, dear friend, and we hope that you are running free and enjoy warm sunspots while you wait for your family at the Bridge.

    Purrs,
    Charlemagne, Tamar and Mal

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  101. Oh no. I've been ill and only just checked into the bloggie world today and came here asap for any news on Abby and I find this. Oh my Lord. I am so so sorry. Oh Abby! You went to the moon and back and then some. You grew wings. Awwww darling Abby. You've flown to paradise and become a star.

    I am so so sorry.

    x

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  102. I am sat here in floods of tears.

    You have written so beautifully about Abby, I feel I know her. She is beautiful. I know your love is deep as the oceans and wide as the sky, and she left you behind,

    You moved heaven and earth for her, loved her more than anything.

    She loved you too and said goodbye at home.

    Yours in grief,

    Marjorie and DashKitten

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  103. My heart is just breaking for you. I feel awful that I don't even have the words that could even begin to convey how deeply sorry I am.
    You did EVERYTHING and MORE in your power to try and save dear Abby, but it wasn't meant to be.
    You spared her a painful passing, you were able to share some final moments that you will always cherish.
    You know that I understand, I just wish I were better at expressing myself. I can only cry. And....send you so much love. I am so terribly sorry.

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  104. I have been following you only since Abby became ill - alerted by GloGirly and Austin. Ther are no words that can describe the pain of your loss. The ache, the numbness, the hole that is there. I understand your feeling of expecting to see her in her favorite places.
    I share your grief. I am crying for you and for my cats who have left this earth. I understand how your blog writing helped get you through this time. Know that there is a big, loving,emotional purring community of pet friends out here who care about you.
    xxxx
    Ann, Louie, Wilbur and Skootch

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  105. You can have a lot of pets, but there's always that ONE that really wraps itself around your heart and won't let go -- your feline or canine soul mate. So glad you and Abby had each other for as long as you did.

    Big hugs to you and yours,

    Leslie

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  106. What a beautiful tribute to your beloved Abby. We are so sorry that she has left you and send thoughts and purrs of comfort for your heart to heal.

    Run free at the Bridge, beautiful Abby ...

    'Kaika and his mom

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  107. Dear Mom Debra,

    Oh I so wanted a miracle for Abby and so I didn't expect this and am absolutely heart-broken for you. Your love for Abby is really beautiful and you sharing her journey with us really touched me on such a deep level. My wish for you is for the profound love and bond you and Abby share to transcend the physical plane and this hard-to-bear loss and that it will grace your heart, soul and spirit. I hold you in my thoughts and send much love.

    Be Well Sweet Abby

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  108. Hugs. I am so sorry for this loss. I know it's not easy. I know it's better for Abby, but it also hurts so much that it's not better for you. I am glad you had her home and she went with you. Hugs again.

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  109. Abby, forever loved. Until you two meet again, may good memories give you comfort.

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  110. Oh, I am so sorry to hear about Abby. No words can really make anything feel better right now, I know. Keep loving on the other kitties who will be missing her too.
    Sarah (Bev "Lacoochee Kid's daughter)

    I found this statement once, just thought I would share it.

    And God asked the feline spirit
    Are you ready to come home?
    Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
    And, as a cat, I am most able
    To decide anything for myself

    Are you coming then? asked God.
    Soon, replied the whiskered angel
    But I must come slowly.
    For my human friends are troubled.
    For you see, they need me, quite certainly.

    But don't they understand? asked God
    That you'll never leave them?
    That you souls are intertwined for all eternity?
    That nothing is created or destroyed?
    It just is...forever and ever and ever.

    Eventually they will understand,
    Replied the glorious cat.
    For I will whisper into their hearts
    That I am always with them
    I just am...forever and ever and ever.

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  111. I know there aren't many dry eyes of people that know you and Abby. Your recent posts have been so touching. They've been a little difficult for me to read only because they showed me my inadequacies with Lucy. I'm jealous for your perspective of how you realized your time with Abby was short and precious and you truly made the best of it. I have so many regrets in that area, but the things your wrote impressed me deeply. You are so blessed to have had this time and there will never be a doubt in your mind that Abby knew how much you loved her. Your care of her was perfect. You've been so brave to live in the moment and to write about it. I know there's nothing I can say to comfort you although I wish there were. The Lord is always good and loving.

    Vicki (and Annie)

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  112. Oh Deb, I just heard the news about Abby and we are so so sorry. I sure send tons of hugs and I know you are hurting so much. But Abby felt that love of yours and now she is running free and free of pain. You wrote such wonderful words of her. Sending lots of purrs to ya.

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  113. We are so sorry to hear about Abby. She was one of the first blogging kitties we met 6 years ago.
    We have lost many friends over the years and some hurt more than others.
    This news hurts a lot. Thank you for sharing your sweet Abby with us.
    We will never forget the journey, the fun,the adventures and most certainly, we will never forget Abby :)
    Purrs and Headbumps,
    Tillie and Georgia,
    Treasure,Tiger,JJ and Julie
    and mom Nancy

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  114. We are heart broken that Abby crossed the Bridge. We are sending hugs, purrs and prayers to you and your family. We are so very sorry for your loss.

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  115. All we can offer is our Best Purrs of Comfort, And the certainty that you will both be reunited some day...

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  116. We just got home and our hearts are broken. Know that we will keep you and our memories of your beautiful tuxie girl close to our hearts. Sending love from all of us at Prancer Pie.

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  117. Purrs to you on your loss. We have leaky eyes from reading your post. She will live on in your heart.

    Farewell Abby!

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  118. We are so very sorry for your loss. We're heartbroken for you, yet thankful that Abby lived her life with you surrounded by such extraordinary love. We send you our most comforting hugs and purrs.

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  119. I've come back to pay my respects to Abby. *bows head and leaves flowers* I love her and she will be missed. Sending comforting purrz. If you need me, I'll be on #abbysporch. xoxoxo

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  120. All we can do is send all our love. We will think of you and Abby when we next see the moon.
    Harry, Dexter, Tipp and Willow
    and Mom Carolyn.

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  121. Sending comforting purrrrrrrsss and gentle headbonks. We are so sorry.

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  122. Even though we knew where the Journey was going, we still just can't believe our dear Friend Abby has gone on to the Bridge. Thank you for the gift of sharing the beautiful relationship you continue, still. We send you much love, purrs and kitty kisses, with hugs for all. Your family has been and is such an encouragement to us. Tears fall and will fall, but the love stays.

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  123. I am so so sorry for your loss.
    As an animal lover, I also know the great hole in our hearts, when a beloved one goes on.
    I am sure she knew you loved her.
    She loved you.
    It is as it was meant to be.
    Before long, you will only have the good memories.
    Now though, it will hurt and you will remember.

    Thinking of you during this terrible time,
    JC and The Purr and Fur Gang

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  124. Such beautiful words for a beautiful ladycat. My eyes are so filled with tears. Abby stopped by wish us well with our MaxMaxx--bless Abby and her mom. Our hearts are filled for you--We will look at the moon one night, and I'm sure we will see something so special and hear a purr from all that way. Our prayers and thoughts are with you.

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  125. Our hearts are breaking for you. Soft purrs of comfort to all of those Abby leave behind.

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  126. Oh, you have taken us on your journey with you, and that gift I treasure, too, as difficult as it was sometime. Your words that say with me...

    ''I felt the most overwhelming knowledge of her, and of her life and of my love for her, in the last moments.
    Because it was the most beautiful, the most intense, the most enriching experience of life I've ever known.''

    That is what I felt, too, when my ♥ cat left me too, and I forever grateful that I was there to kiss him goodbye one last time, instead of crossing while I was at work or away from him...

    Fly Free, Sweet Abby...

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  127. That was the most beautiful tribute to Abby. She will always be safe within your heart. Our deepest sympathy to you.

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  128. You said you couldn't do a tribute yet but this is a beautiful tribute to a beautiful soul. I know how hard it is to express what you are feeling in moments such as this. We all do.

    Take care of yourself. You did right by your girl and she thanks you.

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  129. We are truly sorry for your loss. Abby will be missed my many.

    Love,
    Lily Belle & Muffin

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  130. my heart hurts. The journey over the past few weeks has been so visceral, so intense. It has taken me right back to the intensely painful ending with my dear Max (first cat). The ups and downs are brutal, you so eloquently spoke of the heart-pain you experienced over these past few weeks and the joy of each moment, when you heard the crunchies.

    Abby was blessed to have you as her caretaker and you were blessed to have her as your caretaker. A perfect match - each giving the best gifts to each other. What a joy to journey with you over the years in that joy and now I weep with you in the pain of the loss. I long for the day when we are reunited with all our kitty (and doggie) friends who have gone before us.

    Hugs and purrs to you and beloved Abby.

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  131. Perfect family, perfect life, perfect love. We are blessed to have read of your lives together. Provided with perfect candor in perfect words.

    You are Legend, sweet Abby.

    We purr for your mom's comfort, until you meet again.

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  132. We're so sorry to hear this sad news. Abby was a lovely girl; we'll miss her. We're thinking of you and send our purrs.

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  133. What a beautiful, heartfelt tribute to your beloved Abby. How lucky she was to have been loved so. Keeping you in my thoughts and purrs.

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  134. Thats a beautiful tributes. Sissys eyes are leaking.

    We are so sorry for your loss. Purrs to you.

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  135. We're so sorry that Abby had to leave to go to the bridge.

    She was a much loved kitty by all and we think she knew that and that helped her when she crossed over. She knew that you would have friends to help you and think of you.

    xxx

    The Paw Relations

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  136. I'm so sorry to read about Abby. Our cats are so precious to us. May she rest in peace. Sending you a hug, Deb

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  137. I don´t have any words... so sorry about your lost.
    RIP Abby.

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  138. Really sorry for your loss. sending purrs.

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  139. You've written all there is to write. All that's left is to tell you that I am sorry.

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  140. I am so very sorry for your loss. I'm so glad you treasured every last moment with your beautiful girl. Be gentle with yourself as you mourn her passing. My heart goes out to you.

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  141. Dearest Abby's Hooman,

    Though whee only heard through the words of others about your bootiful, and special little kitty whee feel as though whee know her. She was and still is, so special and loved that she is never truly gone.

    Our hearts break for you at this terribly sad time. Treasure the time you had together and look back in joy at all the wonders you shared.

    Thinking of you at this sad time

    Nutty, Nacho, Buddy & Basil
    xxxx

    ~ If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven, to bring you home again ~

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  142. My friend Diamond is Meowing for Abby





    My friend Diamond is Meowing for Abby.
    <3


















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  143. We are all shedding tears because of your eloquence and because we've all been where you are now; mourning the loss of a beloved friend. Every tear reaffirms the great love you had for Abby.
    With much sympathy,
    Maggie

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  144. Deb, a few of us were talking on facebook about our desire to send you cards. But we want to respect your privacy. If you are okay with us expressing our care in that manner, would you email me your address? If not, we completely understand and respect that, as well.

    Hugs to you....

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  145. We read about Abby's passing over at Madi's. We are thinking of you all.

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  146. We are so sorry to hear this sad news. We know Abby was well loved and that you'll miss her terribly.

    The Crew & Crew's Mom

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  147. j'ai des larmes pour vous, pensées.

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  148. Purrrfect tribute for a very special lil lady. Broken hearts are with you and certainly feel your pain. Cyber huggz, Holly and Toy, Tinker, Tang, TyGr, Teak, Thomas, Setzer, and ICE

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  149. We are sorry to hear you have lost your dear, sweet Abby. We will miss our wonderful friend too and we send our comforting purrs and headbumps to help you in your sadness.

    Mindy
    Moe
    Cookie
    Mike

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  150. She was an incredibly beautiful cat. I really feel for your loss.

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