Thursday, January 12, 2017

#TBT


C. July 2013

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It's been 41 months or 1249 days today.
This photo is from some of the last photos
I took of her before...before life as I knew it
would be irreparably changed forever.
I see now that Grief is something that one never
gets over, you simply learn to live with it, but
it never leaves you. It changes you,
and you have to learn to adjust to it's ebbs
and flows and title waves.
For me, I have to mark time. I have to keep track of it
It's my nature to be pragmatic and count the steps.
I used to think each day was one day more
where she was removed from my daily life.
But I've since come to see it as I'm one day
closer to joining her where she is.
Not in a maudlin sense but in a progression of my
Journey. She's up ahead of me on the pathway,
just around the corner which I cannot see around,
but she's there, and waiting. She is waiting for me.
It will be such a joyful reunion.
One day.
But until then I simply miss her.
My heart has a emptiness inside of it.
It still beats and it still loves.
The aching and the sadness have lessen by time
But the absence of the heart
that will never stop.
Not until my heart stops beating
and I find the end of my pathway
to the one thing that means everything to me.

***
I love you Abby
to the Moon and back...
I love you.

18 comments:

  1. Many purrs to you as you hold Abby in your heart.

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  2. Love to the memory of this beautiful girl.

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  3. Beautifully written post. Grief never does go away when we love a kitty so much. XO

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  4. Well written. And you are right. I wait to see Tungsten again. I hope to see all of them again, but Tungsten most of all.

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  5. I loved that beautiful tribute.

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  6. We never get over; we just learn to live without them. You write so very well.

    Emma and Buster

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  7. All our pets are special...however, truth be told everyone has a 'heart' pet. I think Abby was yours.
    What a loving post to her.
    Hugs madi and mom

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  8. abby...yur mom rited an awesum post for ewe two day ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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  9. Purrs, purrayers and hugs

    Luv ya'

    Dezi and Raena

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  10. That's a beautiful way of looking at it. We sure will have a joyful reunion with our precious fur babies.

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  11. A beautiful tribute to a beautiful kitty.

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  12. Such a beautiful tribute to your beautiful, beloved Angel Abby, and the love the two of your share. <3

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