That first day after she left, one of the hardest things to do was this walk alone.
I know that may seem such a trivial matter, but it was huge.
I have been working through all my Abby photo archives and redoing her pictures. It will take me a long time to sort through everything, but one of the things I was looking for was evidence of our "walk". I finally found Abby sitting pretty in the long hallway. It's funny how when you are looking for something you can't find it until much later when you're really not looking for it.
I'm not as raw as I was when I was first searching for these, and now it's much easier to accept the gift of finding evidence of the daily things we use to do together. It was for the best I didn't find these right away. You see my heart wasn't ready for them then. I'm not on life support anymore, slowly very slowly time weaves it's magic and the pain lessens and the tears do not fall as often when old memories creep up on me.
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All of those years Abby we made this walk together are etched deeply into my heart. I can still hear you meowing out your orders and see you marching confidently down this hallway. I cannot help but miss your help each day, but I am blessed with the many years you kept track of me. You were honoring your loyal pledge to protect me in the way you knew I needed. Abby please know I was so thankful, thankful for so many things. Most of all, thankful for you. I love you Abby girl, I love to the Moon and back again and again and again.
Love,
Mom
We are not sure you are ever going to do that walk quite alone...
ReplyDeleteYou and Abby had such a special bond. I'm glad that you are beginning to truly heal so you can look back on the memories you shared with her and treasure them without so much sadness.
ReplyDelete((((((((((((big hugs))))))))))))) Such a sweet Abby girl. When it comes to memories of a dear loved one who has passed, I have always loved the song "I'll Be Seeing You" by Frank Sinatra.
ReplyDelete"I'll find you in the morning sun;
And when the night is new;
I'll be looking at the moon;
But I'll be seeing you."
Love and purrs from me and the Ballicai.
♥ Mew are never alone ♥ even when mew think mew are ♥
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Basil
I don't think it is trivial at all… it is the little things that our pets do / that we do together that impact us the most…
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The little memories are often the things we remember most. I had a
ReplyDeleteblack mancat called Max some years ago and when he returned from his daily walkabouts he always used to throw himself at me. Then he'd go out exploring again!
Luv Hannah and Lucy's Mum xx xx
it is interesting the things that will pop up and stop us dead in our tracks when we least expect it.....
ReplyDeletePeace in your heart is moving in and you will one day remember Abby with more smiles and less tears
ReplyDeleteShe's right there with you, no matter what you are doing!
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They do leave such happy memories. Sometimes it takes a while to smile at them.
ReplyDeleteShe's still walking you but you can only see her in your heart.
ReplyDeleteAbby and you created so many memories together, memories that will forever be with you.
ReplyDeleteThose are lovely pictures of Abby on the long hallway.
purrsss n nosekissies to mine gorgeous sweet tuxie angel Abby
ReplyDeleteyour adoring floofy cocoapuff meezerman Sammy
Your heart will eventually smile at the loving memories and Abby will be most pleased.
ReplyDeleteYES INDEED IT WAS HUGE TO HAVE TO WALK THAT FIRST DAY ALONE. ABBY WAS YOUR SOUL MATE AND PRINCESS OF THE HOUSE.
ReplyDeleteHUGS MADI AND MOM YOUR BFFF
I feel sure that Abby continues to do that walk with you.
ReplyDeleteWe're sure Abby still makes that walk with you. ♥
ReplyDeleteWe agree with the Island cats, that
ReplyDeleteAbby is still making that walk with you. Glad to hear that some of the sting is going away. It is so so hard when they leave. It is fun seeing what you two did together.
You are still being snoopervised by Abby. Making sure you do things right.
ReplyDeleteSuch a lovely memory and lovely pictures.
ReplyDeleteTime does lessen the hurt, but you never forget :)
Purrs Tillie and Georgia,
Treasure,Tiger, JJ and Julie
I hope the time is beginning to come for you when the memories of your girl bring you joy amidst the sadness. XOXOXO
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely memory.
ReplyDeleteIt is a huge thing..the routine is a memory and it pulls at you...funny how we realise the simple routines are just as meaningful as the most amazing events...hugs Fozziemum xx
ReplyDeleteIt's those little things that mean so very much. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI believe you are correct that your "heart wasn't ready for them" therefore they couldn't be found. That is a wonderful way of putting it.
ReplyDeleteThere are so many treasured moments that we don't even realize until they are gone. Dab can't put his shoes on without Josie "helping" him.
ReplyDelete--Jasper
A beautiful gemstone of a memory that you will carry with you forever - so that no matter the day or time, you truly will never walk it alone. We are so deeply grateful that you are easing off "life support". Our hearts are with you....
ReplyDeleteSuch a touching post. Purrs to you.
ReplyDeleteThat is such a wonderful memory that you have. These are the important thing in life. The things that make us better human beings with an understanding of the deep value of all life and our interactions with others.
ReplyDeleteRecently Dad had some work done for our bloggie. The lovely person who did this commented that maybe we should be called "The most photographed cats in the world"
He thought this was great. And also remembered how Dad wishes he had photos of some of our Angels.
Times change. The things in our hearts are forever.
Purrs
Timmy and Dad
I felt that way the first morning I woke without my Lady Bianca, aka Admiral. I went through all the rooms opening the mini blinds and raising them up. My baby was not accompanying me so my tears did instead.
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