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To my Daddy:

There will never be a way to erase

that another year has gone by,

and you're still not here with us anymore.

There will never be a way to erase

the tears that flow when I know 

that time is taking your time here

on Earth further away.

Although, I have come to see that

in direct reverse, the needle of time

which always marches forward

is propelling me closer to you

with each tick of the clock, and that

is a reassuring measure. I can tell you

it has helped me immensely to know

that my time draws closer to the end

rather than the other way around.

I think of you so very often,

and I miss your wise counsel,

and your deep love.

Even though as you aged & you weren't

 the Giant of a man you once were,

in my eyes you still possessed

that super power.

You were my Daddy.

You protected me my whole life,

and I lost that protection when you left.

At least, in my mind and heart I did.

Why does it take a separation to 

fully understand the importance of

someone? Why is that we are unable to 

see how much they mean?

That was one of the valuable lessons

I learned too, you can't possess it

until you've passed through it.

I feel you know that I always

always loved you and my regret is

not showing you more.

But, I know you, and I know you'd tell

me that I did and that you knew,

but it is only when you can no longer

have that Earthly bond,

that you recognize how much you fell

short. All I can do now is

find the lesson and remember it.

But for now, until I find you

again I will wish you a Happy Birthday

wherever you are.

I love you

Your Daughter