A Letter For Boo

Dear Boo,

It's been some time since we were last together.

It seems like it's been forever.

It seems like it was just yesterday.

Sometimes it feels like you were never here.

The empty spaces where you use to be sit

idly silent.

I can only look at your photos and remember

what once was,

and never will be again.

I miss you so very much,

as does Annabelle.

She has been so different since you left us.

It chills me to the bone,

because I fear something is wrong with her.

It's my mind tearing my heart apart.

***

You know, as you saw me often enough,

and heard me softly with all the regrets I've shared

in your presence over the losses that have happened

that in so many ways I don't have that with you.

Because you were so blessed until the very 

last not to have had to deal with a lengthy

illness or suffer in any way.

It happened all so suddenly.

 I know your life was filled with love

and pampering, and also thst you had lived

a long long life.

I couldn't regret any of it.

Only that one thing,

that one thing 

 finally your body couldn't overcome it and 

I had to let you go.

***

The sadness is in the empty spaces

you once occupied. All of what we shared for

so many years. I know how long it took before

I could say Abby's name without tears,

and I fear it will be the same with you.

They say, grief is love with nowhere to go,

and that the price of deep love is

deep grief. 

I'm here to say it's all true.

I miss you more than I can ever begin to express.

I look at those soulful eyes of yours in

photographs and long to reach out and touch you

again, and hold you close to my heart.

I can't reach you.

It hurts.

I know it always will.

My only solace is believing you are now

restored again to what you once 

were and that you are happy and whole.

That one day, one day, you will 

rejoice to meet me at the base of that Bridge.

Until then I love you always,

Mom