It was two years ago midday this Month that
we began our final Journey together on
this earth.
I've come quite far in some respects on the part
of the Journey I've had to do on my own
without you here at my side.
I've left behind the immense anguish,
the harrowing suffering
the torturous Grief monster.
Time has done it's work and chaffed
away slowly and gently at the torment of
your loss.
Replaced by an endless absence,
a longing
a wanting
a wistful bittersweetness
that permeates to the
inner core of my heart.
***
I don't know how long it will take
for time again to do it's duty.
To heal this new path of my
Journey without you.
I don't know where it will
take me and sometimes, admittedly
I simply don't understand.
***
I just
miss
you
beyond
words
everyday.
***
Abby I love you
to the Moon
and back
again
and again
and
again.
***
Purrs to you... that's kind of how my human feels about the cat before Sparkle. She's been gone since February, 2002, but she thinks about her all the time.
ReplyDeleteAww. I still talk about our dog Cocoa that passed away in 2006. Miss him greatly!! My husband lost two pugs before he met me...and he still misses them so much.
ReplyDeleteOur Mommy still struggles with her journey without Prancer Pie - 18 months later. Thank you for sharing with us.
ReplyDeleteXOXO
Sending many purrs and kitty hugs. Meow my sends a virtual big hug too. Words never seem to say the right thing she says, so a hug is better in her o-purr-ion.
ReplyDeleteAnd she also says she never stops thinking about our 4 angel kitties either...there is always things to remind her of them.
DeleteDebra, I think "wistful bittersweetness" is the perfect way to put it, and I'm not sure that we ever can say it's better than that. Lots of hugs and purrs.
ReplyDeleteYour words describe it perfectly, the pain does soften, I never thought it would, but the yearning never goes. Hugs to you and my thoughts are of Abby.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post. Mommy still thinks about Marvin, a kitty she had many, many years before us.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post. Mommy still thinks about Marvin, a kitty she had many, many years before us.
ReplyDeletePurrs and hugs from all of us. You will always have an Abby heart.
ReplyDeleteAhhhh bless your heart we wish would could give you a group hug today.
ReplyDeleteAbby was your soul kitty for sure
hugs madi and mom
Lovely post for Abby, and we remember her with great love and affection. Lots of purrs and headbumps from all of us.
ReplyDeleteMoe
Mindy
Cookie
Mike
and our mom
Sending tons of purrs. It is so good to remember those that we have lost. Great tribute to Abby.
ReplyDeleteI understand too. I feel that way about Robin who was ALL of our hearts kitty. She reared my sons well and captured their hearts so thoroughly, so far, tho they tear at her mention and thoughts of her, no one has been able to capture their heart...yet. Me...I feel that longing for her and for Admiral. Softened yes, but the longing is there.
ReplyDeleteDeerest Abby Mumma yur werdss touched our hearts....
ReplyDeleteMee can tell you LadyMum still holds Aunty Nylablue'ss ashbox an shee criess an singss to her an shee has MEE!!!
Sum kittiess touch you Hu'manss so deeplee. Wee not meen to cause youss' thee sadss an teerss...it iss just that wee LUV a lot an sum of us kitties are nevurr furgettabull.
Pleeze know mee LadyMum sendss gentull ((Hugss)) to you an mee sendss **paw kissess** also.
**bowss head**
Siddhartha Henry an LadyMum
Purrs and gentle headbonks. Purrs
ReplyDeleteFurst weez wanna say a meowsy big fank you fur donatin' to Lexi's medical fund. We weally purreciate it and yes, it hleps.
ReplyDeleteIt's not easy movin' on alone wiffout them. Mommy sez there's a twinge of pain alongside da smiles everytime she speaks da name of a beluvved furry dat has gone to heaven, or sees their fotos. But she sez she wuldn't change a fing cuz it wuld mean she wuld have never known their luv. A luv she kuldn't live wiffout and dat still lingers in hers heart and soul. Yous Abby, Yous Grace, they will furever be a pawrt of you as will Annabelle, Boo, Ping and Jinx. And you awe da better fur it, stwonger cuz of it, and special to have been chosen to share their lives. Sendin' luv and hugs and purrayers.
Luv ya'
Dezi and Lexi
I'm just beginning life without Truffles and it still doesn't even seem possible.
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs.
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs.Some kitties touch us more than others.
ReplyDeleteWhile we often have memories, they are not enough.
We want the physical,real cat. I still miss Tillie and wish she was here.
It still feels so recent and Abby so present. We think of time as healing and the one year mark is significant but the Native Americans believe in the cycle of completion is two years. Our culture is all about rushing time but respecting your grieving process as you have is inspiring. I hope the two year mark brings much peace in your heart.
ReplyDeleteIt still feels so recent and Abby so present. We think of time as healing and the one year mark is significant but the Native Americans believe in the cycle of completion is two years. Our culture is all about rushing time but respecting your grieving process as you have is inspiring. I hope the two year mark brings much peace in your heart.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful words...we send you purrs and hope you can find peace.
ReplyDeleteYous bringed a tear to Mommy's eyes/ She still misses Hissy Old Licorice (and Bob)
ReplyDeleteKisses
Nellie
Such lovely and poignant words for your sweet Abby. Purrs and prayers as you continue your journey. And hugs, too.
ReplyDeleteTBT: I cried about Skeeter yesterday. It is not a contest. I just understand...
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful poem. Grieving over a lost loved one is always a difficult journey, and everyone takes a different path. We hope that you are able to take comfort in the many memories that you share with Abby. Sending purrs and love
ReplyDeleteBeautiful words and post...purrs as you remember your sweet Angel Abby.
ReplyDeleteWow, so heartfelt and powerful :( <3
ReplyDelete<3 and Purrz....
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