One Week

It's been a week.

***

It's hard to wrap my head around everything.

There was really  no warning that anything was

imminent. I was in complete shock. I found him

semi conscious last Friday morning and rushed

him to the Vet, and there wasn't anything they could

do that wouldn't have made any difference to the outcome.

***

I miss him so very much.

Even though I knew, with him being 20

his days were much shorter. 

Still, when it happens you're never prepared.

I'm just now finally getting my feet

back  under me.

But it isn't about me.

Or maybe it is?

I'm the one still here,

and he isn't. So I have to deal with

how everything plays out.

***

I wish they never had to leave us.

Hold your kittens tightly,

you never know.

You just never know.

***