One Week

It's been a week.

***

It's hard to wrap my head around everything.

There was really  no warning that anything was

imminent. I was in complete shock. I found him

semi conscious last Friday morning and rushed

him to the Vet, and there wasn't anything they could

do that wouldn't have made any difference to the outcome.

***

I miss him so very much.

Even though I knew, with him being 20

his days were much shorter. 

Still, when it happens you're never prepared.

I'm just now finally getting my feet

back  under me.

But it isn't about me.

Or maybe it is?

I'm the one still here,

and he isn't. So I have to deal with

how everything plays out.

***

I wish they never had to leave us.

Hold your kittens tightly,

you never know.

You just never know.

***

 

I'll Be Seeing You

I''ll be seeing you

in all the old

familiar places...

That this heart of mine embraces

all day through....

I'll be seeing you

in every lovely summer's day

In everything that's bright and gay...

I'll always think of you that way.

I'll find you in the morning sun

and when the night is new

I'll be looking at the moon

But I'll be seeing you.

It will take awhile for me to be able to process

the enormity of Ping being gone.

You'd think you get 'use to' losses,

but each one hits you like a ton of bricks.

The GriefMonster pulls up to your door

and surprises you with a bag full of

new and powerful emotions.

All of those familiar everyday occurrences

suddenly greet you and smack you

across the face,

and your faced with an empty space

where someone you loved used to be.

***

Grief is so multifaceted.

You don't lose just once

you lose every single day.

Each one is a new prick of the heart.

***

Ping was such a character.

He really was.

I considered him my 'movie star' cat.

He was so photogenic and 

so handsome. He was very insecure though.

He carried that his entire life.

But he was a good loving boy.

He never lost that either.

But now he has rejoined his brother Jinx

who went before him by 14 months.

I envision him restored to his 

youthful form, running and jumping

and playing with all of his

friends and family who were there

to greet him as he came across the beautiful

Rainbow Bridge.

***

I will miss him.

20 years wasn't enough.

 

Ping Forever

Thank you to Ann from Zoolarty 

for the lovely graphic for our beloved Ping.

***

1/1/2003

1/6/2023

***

It's been said,

"time heals all wounds",

I do not agree.

The wound remains.

In time,

the mind, 

protecting it's sanity,

covers them with scar tissue

and the pain lessens.

But...

it is never the same.

 

Remembering Huffle

We just learned today that Huffle Mawson has gone to the Bridge.
We are very sad to hear this.
We have known Huffle for many many years.
Huffle was a kitty who lived in Melbourne Australia.
Both herMom and Dad are traveling right now but we
know that they must be very sad.
Please leave some kind purrs for them here===>>>
HUFFLE

Thank you Anne from Zoolarty for the beautiful graphic.

Is Heaven all you asked for it, O little cat?

Did Peter fit a halo for your graceful head?

Is there a quilt for your special bed,

And a bowl of cream just out of reach of your little paw?

Does the flapping of Their wings entice?

Do you scamper and swing on a golden fence,

Or are They teaching you reverence?

And are there really golden thrones up there?

Or do the Mighty Ones have nice fat chairs that you can claw

And tear and snag with an impious paw?

And do the Angels understand that a little cat in a lonely land,

Still longs for a kiss and a friendly cuff?

Celestial joys are not enough.

Please, some small saint in shining white,

Hold him close in your arms tonight.

~Bianca Bradbury

Alan Sullivan

Alan Sullivan aka Seablogger, died peacefully today.

I discovered Fresh Bilge,his blog in 2005 when Brendan Loy was covering the tragedy of Hurricane Katrina. What began as an interest in hurricanes quickly became a must read daily. Alan had a vast knowledge that I have yet to find in any other personal blog I have come across.

Alan and I could not have been more different. But our differences showed me how alike we were . I learned so much from Alan and to see his last RSS feed which was his own obituary left me with such sadness. I feel a great loss in the blogging community.

Brendan Loy has posted a fabulous memorial to Alan today and I have linked to it.
Also linked is Alan's blog. It will remain as a testament to Alan and the brilliant man that he was and is.

I will miss you Alan.Your insights, your intellect, your wit.
All of your "rare readers", (as he called all of us) will.
Fair sails Captain.
No longer are your locked on land, you're now free to sail, and I'm sure you will.