One Week

It's been a week.

***

It's hard to wrap my head around everything.

There was really  no warning that anything was

imminent. I was in complete shock. I found him

semi conscious last Friday morning and rushed

him to the Vet, and there wasn't anything they could

do that wouldn't have made any difference to the outcome.

***

I miss him so very much.

Even though I knew, with him being 20

his days were much shorter. 

Still, when it happens you're never prepared.

I'm just now finally getting my feet

back  under me.

But it isn't about me.

Or maybe it is?

I'm the one still here,

and he isn't. So I have to deal with

how everything plays out.

***

I wish they never had to leave us.

Hold your kittens tightly,

you never know.

You just never know.

***

 

I'll Be Seeing You

I''ll be seeing you

in all the old

familiar places...

That this heart of mine embraces

all day through....

I'll be seeing you

in every lovely summer's day

In everything that's bright and gay...

I'll always think of you that way.

I'll find you in the morning sun

and when the night is new

I'll be looking at the moon

But I'll be seeing you.

It will take awhile for me to be able to process

the enormity of Ping being gone.

You'd think you get 'use to' losses,

but each one hits you like a ton of bricks.

The GriefMonster pulls up to your door

and surprises you with a bag full of

new and powerful emotions.

All of those familiar everyday occurrences

suddenly greet you and smack you

across the face,

and your faced with an empty space

where someone you loved used to be.

***

Grief is so multifaceted.

You don't lose just once

you lose every single day.

Each one is a new prick of the heart.

***

Ping was such a character.

He really was.

I considered him my 'movie star' cat.

He was so photogenic and 

so handsome. He was very insecure though.

He carried that his entire life.

But he was a good loving boy.

He never lost that either.

But now he has rejoined his brother Jinx

who went before him by 14 months.

I envision him restored to his 

youthful form, running and jumping

and playing with all of his

friends and family who were there

to greet him as he came across the beautiful

Rainbow Bridge.

***

I will miss him.

20 years wasn't enough.

 

Ping Forever

Thank you to Ann from Zoolarty 

for the lovely graphic for our beloved Ping.

***

1/1/2003

1/6/2023

***

It's been said,

"time heals all wounds",

I do not agree.

The wound remains.

In time,

the mind, 

protecting it's sanity,

covers them with scar tissue

and the pain lessens.

But...

it is never the same.

 

Gotcha

Ping

Angel Jinx

Boo

Happy Gotcha Day!

18 and counting!

 

 

Mancat Monday

Ping had to go back to the Vet once again

with his hematoma.

Poor boy.

But he is getting much better.

Slow but sure.

 

Mancat Monday memory

That is Angel Gracie sniffing the box,

and brother Ping is just chillax!

 

Mancat Monday

The big orange

 

MANCAT MONDAY

One very alert mancat!

 

Mancat Monday

I was looking for photos and then my eye

caught this one.

To anyone it's just a photo from the back of

Ping looking out the window, but it's more.

There's a 1989 Ford Ranger in the background.

So many memories.

Many times I've stood at that window Ping

is standing at and wished to see that truck

pull into the driveway, and I know it never will.

There are just times when things catch

you off guard and it makes your heart

skip a few beats and brings tears to your eyes.

 

Gotcha Day

In the way back machine of 2004,

these three came to me.

It's been an interesting time.

They've been through a lot with me, 

and I'm so glad that they were with me.

Happy Gotcha Day

Boo, Ping and Jinx!

 

Mancat Monday

Ping has improved greatly.

I think he feels better.

But, he does have some balance issues.

Boy, do I know all about that.

When your inner ear is damaged,

it really throws off your balance.

He is being a regular Ping!

 

Boo Hoos

Yes Miss Boo, you do have very cute ears!

Thank you Ann

of Zoolarty for the 

thoughtful photo of our dear Ping.

And a very happy birthday to

sweet Marv!

 

Mancat Monday

It's been a stressful week.

A few months ago Ping developed a hematoma

on his left ear.

Since he has a heart murmur, he couldn't get

steroids, so unfortunately he just had to deal

with it longer than he would have, had he been

able to have the steroids. He was miserable,

and he kept scratching his ear.

Then that caused the ear to get infected.

Then he got vertigo because of the infection.

So we ended up back at the Vet, which

stresses him out to no end.

But, he was so pitiful, and I was so worried

they were going to tell me that it was

better to let him go.

Thankfully the Vet said that there is a lot of

spark in Ping, even at his advanced age,

and that they would get him all cleared up.

So it's been a few days and he is not miserable

but he is still a bit unstable on his feet.

I do believe, just like his Mom, he is deaf

now in his left ear, but that's something

he can compensate for, just like his Mom!

So please keep my sweet boy in your prayers.

 

Mancat Monday

Is Ping watching the Tropics?

Well it's heated up.

Incoming....

Elsa.

 

Mancat Monday

I'm chillin even if it is the first day of Summer,

and we had our first tropical event of the season.

It was a small one.

But it's two whole months really before it's all 

supposed to start.

In the past August is when things really heat up,

but the waters in the Gulf of Mexico & the 

Atlantic Ocean is very very warm.

Already....

***

*sigh*

***

We all hate Hurricane Season.

 

Mancat Monday

Check out those whiskers!

 

Mancat Monday

Pesky brothers

 

Mancat Monday

Ping looks like he has one green and one blue eye!

But they're both green.

 

Mancat Monday

Handsome Mancat

 

Mancat Monday

Well hello handsome!

Happy March!