A few weeks ago I had to open a new bag of dried cat food.
It brought back a slew of memories.
You see Abby was always the first one to christen a new bag. She always had to have first dibs on it. First by marking it and then by having the first few bites out of the bag which I would let her get herself. She really enjoyed that.
Oh Abby I still see you sitting right here. I see you as plain as day. I miss those beautiful amber eyes staring back at me. I think every day of the things we shared, and I talk to you as if you were still with me in your physical form. I know you must get very tired of me telling you the same thing over and over again, but I just can't stop missing your presence. Missing your ways. Missing your bigger than life personality. Missing you.
I love you Abby, love you more than these simple yet powerful words can convey. I am making progress Abby. I am not as apt to break down into tears as I did just a few short weeks ago. It's only 64 days since you've gone. Sixty four. The days they continue to roll by Abby. Soon October will turn into November and then December and then this gosh awful year will close. I thought I was glad to see August end, but I think the end of 2013 will be good for me to see over. Perhaps 2014 will show more promise. Maybe there will be more bright days than dim ones. I know you would not want me to continue to feel the nothingness I am feeling now, but I don't know how to make it better, so I am just following the advise of those who have made this journey and doing the best I can. I am hoping that the passage of time will wear away the hollowness and I will find that my mind will not be dwelling on your loss, but rather on your life. Because I do sincerely feel blessed that you came to me and I will always feel that was a gift, each day with you was a gift for which I am grateful. So please bear with me while I walk this path alone towards you and into the light of healing and wholeness.
DaddyCat got moved from the hospital to a Rehab facility yesterday.
It was very hard on him, very hard.
The transition wasn't as smooth as hoped for, but in the scheme of things, we have discovered that is just the way things go. DaddyCat has some serious difficulties to overcome plus rehab his surgically repaired leg. We are praying for healing and Rehab to work.